Share My World

Look at my BABY! She’s growing up!

I think she’s going to learn how to eat by herself soon!

Yay!

I am so tired that I can not even go to sleep. I am consumed by this website. Are you bored with reading about it yet? Well, I can not help it. If I try to go to sleep and I get an idea on how to improve it, I have to get back up and either write down the idea or move forward with implementing it.

I bet you’re glad you’re not my friend. All you’d hear about is, “My website this and my website that.” My sister calls and says, “Tell me about your progress.” I’m glad she does that. I tell her what I’ve learned about backlinking and SEO and keywords and google ranking and I told her, “When I’m done with making this a success, you’re gonna do one too and I’m gonna be able to tell you everything. But I’m learning as I go.”

It is so much FUN to me!

Well, this is my life right now. I reached out to two more people for stories I want to write and I think I may add another contributing columnist to add more flair to the perspectives already offered. I may not agree with her on some things but she has an opinion that’s valid, why not allow her to share it.

I also reached out to two more companies for sponsorship. What did that Note From The Universe say? Something like… Opportunity doesn’t always come knocking, sometimes you have to knock on every door to find it.

I’ve been knocking.

Knocking.

Knocking.

My knuckles are bleeding.

I am so tired. But not tired of doing this.

This makes my SOUL happy.

I’m happier than I have been this entire time I have been in grad school.

I can’t believe it. I’m back making websites again. This is my path. Somehow I’ve gotta make it last. I am so proud of myself and every day I am happier and happier.

And I don’t feel any doubts at all. All the negative feelings and doubts floated away. This feeling WILL last. It has to. I’m moving into the happiest times of my life. I can feel it.

I hope you will join me.

All grateful hearts welcome.

If you are trying to gain readers for your online magazine or website I will share a few tips that I have learned from working as a journalist over the years.

1. Don’t just tell your friends about it and ask them to spread the word. My friends don’t even read my writing or my books. They take it for granted because we speak everyday. You have to find online forums and groups that don’t know you personally, join and engage as a regular contributor and then mention your website or project in passing, not everyday.

2. Do Interviews. Interviews are the MAIN ingredient because when you do a profile of someone who has a popular platform, not only are they exposed to your project, they will probably share a link to their interview on their platform which will expose all of their readers to your project; instant traffic. You have to cultivate relationships with people and they will gladly support your project just as you will support theirs.

3. Find different perspectives to include. You can write a blog about your own niche or you can open it up and expose thought processes that oppose your own. If you want MORE readers you must be open minded and allow others to contribute their voice. By adding guest columnists who share their opinions and views, you draw in an entirely different audience who will in turn be exposed to the messages you are promoting.

4. Spin current topics. Whenever my friends give me ideas for my site, they usually give the regular hum drum idea but I know how to SPIN it to offer a unique perspective. For example: instead of writing about How To Attract A Man, write about the top 5 Ways To Sabotage a Relationship. If your friend suggests you write Car Buying Tips, you can write TRICKS MECHANICS PLAY ON WOMEN.

5. Establish platforms on all social networks and SOCIALIZE. That means you don’t just post your links, you stop in and say hello to your fans and friends. If people feel comfortable contacting you or reaching out to you they will more likely support what you are doing.

6. Build yourself up by using your platform to contact the people you admire most in your field. You have a blog about surfing so you go out and find the top surfers in the nation and ask them for interviews. You can get advice from them on how to become a top surfer and share their advice on your site. You will learn from the best and they will be honored that you sought them out for their insight. You can always imitate what they teach you and become a leader in your field too. Document this journey on your website and people will come back to read as you make your ascension.

Wanna hear something crazy?

Sometimes I feel like I’m gonna be a world leader.

What is a world leader anyway? I am so not a politician. I am not a doctor or a religious figure or advocate.

I don’t know why but I just had this feeling about it just now and a speech came tumbling into my brain called the New Generation of Leaders and I was sitting here saying the speech with so much authority that it just felt right.

I always said, “If you can imagine it, you can have it.”

Wow. Wouldn’t that be crazy? If ol crazy Ms. Tee ended up being an important leader or some craziness.

I don’t know if I really want that. I really want, to be able to eat at Red Lobster again, to pay off my child support debt and my student loans and to go to the dentist and to be able to really have some fun with my sons without worrying about money.

I don’t know. I’m just rambling I guess.

No anxiety since last Tuesday. Yay! But that’s because I haven’t interacted with anyone in person since then. Still holed up in my studio apartment smoking cigarettes working on my website and getting FULL off the joy of what I’m doing everyday.

I sent out another press release today. I think I’m getting better at writing them. No press has called yet so maybe i’m not THAT good. SMH.

I am so isolated yet I don’t feel like something is WRONG with me because of it.

Like, I have no best friend or no boy friend or no girl friend and I have no friends to call and hang out with so I’m really, all alone.

Yet, even while I’m all alone I still feel okay. It’s okay to be alone. I have fun by myself. I laugh. I do what I want. I’m comfortable.

I am so stress free lately.

I never knew what a weight I had been carrying until it was released.

I think I’m going to cry. I know I am, and its not because I’m scared and I don’t know what to do, it’s because, I’m so happy that for once I DO know what to do and i’m NOT Scared and I’m finally feeling light and free and hopeful even though theres still lots I would like to change about who I am.

I’m not perfect but I make perfect choices.

I am okay.

WOW! My books are listed on AMAZON! They’re in the Kindle section! You don’t need a Kindle reader to buy them, you can use Kindle on your computer or your cell phone.

My intuition spoke to me yesterday.

It gave me an idea for a fundraiser for my website that will help women. It said: On April 11th you will become homeless. You will give away all of your belongings and live on the streets and in homeless shelters to teach women to overcome their biggest fear of homelessness and to show them that they can survive anything. You will reach out to organizations in the community for support. You will document everything on your website and youtube channel. You will raise money to support your website and donate to the homeless shelter that hosts you.

I sat here listening and I was blown away. What kind of idea is that?

I sighed.

But I had peace about it.

Then today, as I sent out my first partnership letter to a homeless shelter, I got scared. Really scared.

Not that I am going to die, but that this is something that is going to change my life forever. Then the doubts started creeping in. What if no one cares? What if no one notices? What if no one wants to partner with you on this? What if it is a failure?

And then I said to myself, “At least I tried.”

So right now I am definitely feeling the fear. This will become very real when I send a letter to my landlord stating my intention to leave the premises.

Tonight I will plan everything out in writing. I plan to speak at various community agencies during the time that I am on the streets. I plan to seek donations from whoever.

I am afraid. But I remind myself to feel the fear and do it anyway.

I am so scared.

So scared.

But I’ll do it anyway.

I can not believe this is happening.

Look what I ordered today from VistaPrint. This is turning into something very REAL.

It’s like, when you have an idea and you just move forward as though it’s legitimate even BEFORE it’s really legitimate then it BECOMES legitimate.

Like, every other person’s company or idea that is well known started off just like I am.

I am a small business owner and although I have not generated any revenue yet, I still own my own business and I will treat it as such by investing my whole heart into it.

But who really cares, but me? LOL

Anyway, today I decided to take the plunge and announce my project to the public. I spent the day calling around to shelters and I found one who is willing to allow me to stay there and film there and will even be able to speak on camera for my project. He gave me some tips and warnings about living on the streets too.

And I called around to the community agencies and centers to extend an invitation to allow me to speak at their centers about this project. Many were quite shocked to hear about it but I have a few follow up conversations before I can say I booked my first speaking engagement.

I feel like I’m walking in a fog. Is this for real? Am I really pushing this like that? Is this how it all begins?

Today I reached out to many of the readers that I had in the past. Before I stopped blogging I was very popular. I had more than 200 people coming to my blog everyday to check on my life. Now I’m down to about 30 per day. =) So I reached back to those who had emailed me in the past and invited them to come back and read and to check out my other site too.

One girl wrote me back like, “Girl….”

I could tell she was like, “Nobody don’t care about your damn blog anymore!”

That made me laugh.

Maybe no one does.

It was a lot of pressure to have that many readers. All the emails that I used to get and requests for help and to meet me. I was overwhelmed at times.

I don’t know. Even as I write this I still don’t really feel like I’m writing for an audience. I feel like I’m just writing in my own personal diary and no one is ever going to see it.

I just ate a whole pack of ritz crackers. SMH

They were good though, but now I’m thirsty.

I called my friend Carr to come over to help me with my “new” TV. I wanted it set up before the boys come over this weekend.

He came and I told him, “I have a feeling that this is the last time I’m going to see you.”

He shook his head. “I’ll be around, Tee.”

“But maybe I won’t,” I said.

It’s not like I think I’m going to die. I don’t. I just feel like something interesting is about to happen. I don’t know what it is yet though. I’m not scared, well, yes I am. But it’s more of a feeling like on the day of graduation when you’re wondering, “OK. What now?”

I spoke with my landlord today. I sent her an email a couple of days ago to explain that I am leaving in a month. She said, “Tee, I can’t believe how much stuff you have out there on the internet. Tee, good job. I’m proud of you. Good luck.”

I was grateful to hear that.

Oh wow. It just got REALLY cold all of a sudden. Thank goodness I still have my electric blanket.

It’s funny thoughh. Lately, I’ve been really listening to my intuition and accepting it as my guidance. I listen to what it says and I do it. I trust myself a lot more. My intuition sounds just like me when I’m thinking to myself except, the words I “hear” sound so certain, so right. They aren’t full of confusion and doubt. They just Say what they have to say and there’s no question about it.

Do this…

Go that way…

Call this person right now…

And I do it.

I’m going to keep listening. Funny how, I never valued anyone’s opinion above my own. Now I just follow my own inner guidance and we’ll see how that works out.

No fighting the flow, just listening and obeying.

Salud.

OMG!

I had like, the best DAY EVER!

For real!

Ok. So all day every day all I do from the time I wake up is think and then take action. I ask myself, “What can I do to make my dreams come true? How can I make this website better? Who can I interview to learn from?”

Then I read all the press releases that are sent out and if I see someone, a woman, I admire I call up their PR person and ask for an interview. Just like that. I know my site hasn’t even been up a month yet, but I’m DAMN GOOD at what I do and this is just the beginning, better get on board early.

So today I saw a woman in the news and after reading her bio I was sooo impressed. Dang! She’s doing a lot of the things I want to do, but on a larger scale. She’s impressive! So I call her PR person and tell her about my site and schedule an interview. The PR person seems excited and she’s like, “She’ll call you this afternoon.”

While I’m waiting for her call I get another call from an agency that I applied to speak at during my PROJECT. They are going through my internet presence to see what kinds of things I have to offer. This is GREAT news because all my shit is on point. I stay ready.

Then I get the call from the lady in the news and I interview her quickly, chatting like we’re old friends. I’m GREAT at interviews! Then she asks if she can send me a package of her books so that I can read and I stammer.

SHe wants my address. Um…

“Well,” I say. “When you mention address, I have to tell you that…”

Then I recount the whole story about my PROJECT and how I’ll be living in the streets in a month and won’t have an address. “It’s to inspire women to face their biggest fear and to show them that even if it does happen, they can rebuild.”

I sigh.

She’s quiet for a moment and then says, “WHAT?! You’re really going to do that? That’s courageous! You have my full support. I have contacts in the media and I’m going to tell EVERYBODY about this! You’re going to succeed. I promise you. We have 4 foundations and I’ll donate anything you will need.”

I’m blown away by this offer. “I’ll send you an email with all the details!” I promise her.

And then I sat back and shook my head. I hope she stays true to her word. I really do.

And then I sat back and thought to myself, “Who else would I want to partner with?” Then I made a few phone calls and got his contact information and sent a pitch letter.

~crossing fingers~

If this goes the way I’m envisioning it in my mind- the sky’s the limit for me!

I can’t WAIT to be a blessing! Ooh! I’m going to have the biggest party for all the people who have supported me in DEED over the years! I’m gonna drop grands on everyone! I’m going to establish a fund specifically for women who are willing to take the risk to go after their dream. If they put in the work, I’ll back them up financially.

I’m going to be everything I always wished someone would have been for me!

Just wait and see!