Just Living

I spent all morning working on my new series of videos and even though I slept for 8 hours after i finished them, I am still so TIRED.

But there’s so much more to explore, write about and DO. I just feel like vegging out. I ordered a pizza because I’m almost out of food. My series is about the fact that its my anniversary for being single. Ten long years.

I’m okay with it. I mean. I don’t feel sad about it anymore. I don’t expect that kind of love in my life and the realization of it makes me feel free. When you free yourself from expectations, you can truly live life.

You don’t have to be miserable or disappointed anymore. You can truly just LIVE.

So that’s what I’m doing.

My Focus

It’s been crazy.

I am half way through writing my series for The Pulitzer. No, I am not confident the information is that groundbreaking but I am presenting it in a creative way so you never know.

Im starting to feel the itch to move on from here but I want to do better by making a solid plan first. Its just, nobody knows this but my back hurts a LOT from serving. I’m not as young as I used to be.

I’m tired. I need a breakthrough of some sort. I have been on my GRIND. Listen, I have applied for every award I could find and even entered a beauty competition all the while continuing to study on how to market my website and gain readers.

I’m tired.

All I want for Christmas is a breakthrough in my career and for my sons to get Kindle Fires. I’d like to spend New Years with them doing something cool too.

My tooth hurts. I stopped smoking and I’m excited about that although I do miss the activity.

Anyway, ive been writing all night. I need to read some more and learn some more. What we focus on, we become.