My son Sai has a fever. So, Im cuddling him and serving him to make him feel better. While he’s on the couch watching Sponge Bob I’m over here missing church again and thinking about my career.
I have done some good things with my writing. But I want more. Maybe thats my problem. Im never satisfied. Anything I do could always be better. Anytime I dream, there could always be more. Sometimes I feel like I may be overcompensating, trying to do more, because I had to stop everything when I had my children and it took me so long to finish school.
But then I remember I was always like that. I always dreamt way bigger than anyone I knew. My vision is to impact generations with my philanthropy and writing and words of wisdom. Most ppl dont dream like that.
I just want to write. More than anything else I want to write and uplift. If money wasnt an issue, this is what I’d do for life. My dream is to sit right here in front of my computer listening to the rain and pouring my heart out for others to read. For me writing is not a selfish thing. I dont write just to vent, though sometimes it leads me to write. While I am writing I ask myself, how will this impact someone? Even if I am sad or upset I dont want my reader to engulf themselves in my negative emotions although I do expect them to empathize with me.
I try to turn it around somewhere at the end. To make myself feel better by remembering a promise of God and to remind the reader that in the end, it all comes down to God’s hope for our lives. He wants to prosper us and give us life abundantly.
Yeah, everytime I pick up a magazine or read something interesting I think to myself, I can do that. I can write like that or better. All I know is that I am where God wants me to be right now. It may not be at the center of a media storm but its a blessed position and if I am faithful He will take me where He wants me to be.
ANd you know what? That sounds good, but I TRULY believe it.