My intuition spoke to me yesterday.
It gave me an idea for a fundraiser for my website that will help women. It said: On April 11th you will become homeless. You will give away all of your belongings and live on the streets and in homeless shelters to teach women to overcome their biggest fear of homelessness and to show them that they can survive anything. You will reach out to organizations in the community for support. You will document everything on your website and youtube channel. You will raise money to support your website and donate to the homeless shelter that hosts you.
I sat here listening and I was blown away. What kind of idea is that?
I sighed.
But I had peace about it.
Then today, as I sent out my first partnership letter to a homeless shelter, I got scared. Really scared.
Not that I am going to die, but that this is something that is going to change my life forever. Then the doubts started creeping in. What if no one cares? What if no one notices? What if no one wants to partner with you on this? What if it is a failure?
And then I said to myself, “At least I tried.”
So right now I am definitely feeling the fear. This will become very real when I send a letter to my landlord stating my intention to leave the premises.
Tonight I will plan everything out in writing. I plan to speak at various community agencies during the time that I am on the streets. I plan to seek donations from whoever.
I am afraid. But I remind myself to feel the fear and do it anyway.
I am so scared.
So scared.
But I’ll do it anyway.