Becoming Legitimate

I can not believe this is happening.

Look what I ordered today from VistaPrint. This is turning into something very REAL.

It’s like, when you have an idea and you just move forward as though it’s legitimate even BEFORE it’s really legitimate then it BECOMES legitimate.

Like, every other person’s company or idea that is well known started off just like I am.

I am a small business owner and although I have not generated any revenue yet, I still own my own business and I will treat it as such by investing my whole heart into it.

But who really cares, but me? LOL

Anyway, today I decided to take the plunge and announce my project to the public. I spent the day calling around to shelters and I found one who is willing to allow me to stay there and film there and will even be able to speak on camera for my project. He gave me some tips and warnings about living on the streets too.

And I called around to the community agencies and centers to extend an invitation to allow me to speak at their centers about this project. Many were quite shocked to hear about it but I have a few follow up conversations before I can say I booked my first speaking engagement.

I feel like I’m walking in a fog. Is this for real? Am I really pushing this like that? Is this how it all begins?

Today I reached out to many of the readers that I had in the past. Before I stopped blogging I was very popular. I had more than 200 people coming to my blog everyday to check on my life. Now I’m down to about 30 per day. =) So I reached back to those who had emailed me in the past and invited them to come back and read and to check out my other site too.

One girl wrote me back like, “Girl….”

I could tell she was like, “Nobody don’t care about your damn blog anymore!”

That made me laugh.

Maybe no one does.

It was a lot of pressure to have that many readers. All the emails that I used to get and requests for help and to meet me. I was overwhelmed at times.

I don’t know. Even as I write this I still don’t really feel like I’m writing for an audience. I feel like I’m just writing in my own personal diary and no one is ever going to see it.

I just ate a whole pack of ritz crackers. SMH

They were good though, but now I’m thirsty.