I woke up this morning with my cute stud friend on my mind. I hope I’m not coming down with a crush..that would suck.
Anyway…I like having her as a friend because I can be my real self and talk about the shit I really like to talk about and I learn from her because she’s mature. I realize the MAIN reason why I feel comfortable with her is the fact that she has a girlfriend. If she didn’t I don’t think we could have become friends because I would have been too nervous and set all these requirements so I could push her away you know..since I’m too afraid to like someone again.
But since she has a girl…I get to be around her and hang out and it’s quite odd..I feel so comfortable. The other night when our mutual friend was supposed to meet us on South Beach but canceled at the last minute, it ended up just being me and her. We hung out, had dinner went to the club and by the time I dropped her off we were both smiling so big.
“I had a great time with you, Mistee,” she said.
“I had a great time with you too,” I told her.
So that’s why I went last night to see her again. She’s so unusual. I like…just LOOKING at her. And past that…I like TALKING to her…I love it when she mentions her ex girlfriends. I have no ex girlfriend stories because I have never had a girlfriend before so those are always interesting. I like her perspective on relationships and friendships and I really love when she rushes me off the phone so she can talk to her girl…
I loved meeting one of her exes. That girl was HOT! I was like…..damn! And she was cool as fuck.
This cute stud friend of mine is like….a lot of what I would want if I ever stopped being afraid. In fact, last night at work…I was just happily serving my tables and I stopped in mid stride when I realized..my fantasy came true.
See…I see so many stud/femme couples and i always wonder what it would be like to BE one of those couples. The cute ones. And there I was the other night…out with a FINE ASS STUD…walking on South Beach, totally engaged in the conversation. She looked good. I looked good. If we were a couple we’d be so cute together!
I know she has a girl so it wasn’t really me and MY girl…but it came close enough for now…
I really got to experience what I had been fantasizing about…
And it was awesome.
I felt like such a star when i was with her. Weird but…I’m not physically attracted to her like that. I mean..she’s beautiful and I LOVE looking at her but, I think its her personality that intrigues me the most.
She’s HOT and smart and has a swagger like a star. She checks me. She makes me laugh.
I’m glad I met her. I hope we stay friends forever.
And if I ever do get a girl…I want one like her…