Wow.
I am really feeling the anxiety tonight. I set a goal for myself. I’d pull an all niter and get another chapter done. I’ve been staring at the blank page for an hour now and…nothing. This is crazy. When this happens, I’ll just step away from the computer and then relax. But I can’t tonight and I know why.
I’m putting way too much pressure on myself right now.
Shit..I remember when Tamara was about to turn 29 and she was freaking out about it. I never thought I would be doing it too. It’s not that I’m afraid to get older. I can’t wait to be 30, that sounds like a HOT age to me! It’s just…
I have so much to contend with right now. The rational part of me is saying, “Girl, chill out. You’re only 29. You have a long life ahead of you.” But the brat in me is saying, “Umm…what have you done with your first 29 years? What have you got to show for it? What have you accomplished? Where’s your fortune?”
Yeah..I know, I’m crazy..Well, tonight I am.
This sitting up in my room, making contacts, writing articles, planting seeds and trying to do my thing but not really seeing anything come out of it is bothering me.
But then…I just open up my email and click on any of the replies from many authors and successful business people that I have researched or contacted and they all say basically the same thing:
There will be disappointments, there will be setbacks and seeming failures. The only way to push through them is to know that they are all stepping stones to get to where you really want to be.
Ok, I’m gonna focus on that and open up this WORD document again.
~deep breath~