No Sadness

I have a hard time being sad.

I’m really trying to feel emotion about my brother’s unborn baby not making it but I can’t drum up the emotion. I feel happy. I think it’s because of my belief that we are all spiritual beings who CHOOSE to come to have physical experiences….maybe that spirit just wasn’t ready or didn’t think the parents were. I believe that spirit is still around..just chose not to come right now.
I’m still happy to “know” her but excited that she had the opportunity to know the answer we all forget when we’re born: Where do we come from?
I’m glad my Mama had me. I know I’m crazy sometimes and full of weirdness but I really like who I am and the life I live right now. Death does not scare me, but life does sometimes.