What a crazy ass night at Denny’s! Two customers complained about me! LOL! That’s cuz if a customer gives me attitude I simply won’t serve them. But I did get a good “talking to” from my manager when one of my complaints said he was gonna call corporate on our store. Man..that man had an attitude from jump and I could have just ignored him until he walked out but noooo…I tried to be nice, tried to serve him and when he wouldn’t stop barking at me I told him that i would find him another server. That’s when he got mad.
~sigh~ Ya’ll should be nice to us, we work for $3.77 an hour AND we handle your food. Most times I’m able to calm the person down when I can tell that they are taking out their life issues on me, but sometimes my niceness makes them even more upset. My manager told me that if a customer is rude to me to just…ignore them and serve them. I’m gonna try to do that next time.
Awww…I feel so bad about what I’m about to write cuz I know those readers who have been following me at least since the beginning of this year are all excited because I met someone who reminds me of my imaginary boyfriend Steve. Well, I decided not to pursue anything with him. This feeling in my heart won’t go away and I don’t like it. It’s like a pain, maybe it’s fear, I don’t know. All I know is..if this is what it feels like to “like” someone I’d rather not have this experience. I was happier before I met him, worry free and just chillin…
Maybe we can be friends, if not, oh well. I have learned a lot from him though. He challenges me in a way that no one, not even Tamara has ever challenged me. After I sent him that angry text telling him that he doesn’t have to worry about my project, we spoke and he said, “So, tell me something. You were willing to throw away our business relationship because you were feeling emotional?”
I gulped.
“Tee, that’s not right,” he said. “Look at how many relationships that you’ve ended that could have been beneficial to you. And all because you felt..whatever it was that you were feeling. You have to get a tighter hold on your feelings. Let business be business.”
I know. I know.
Fuck.
I’m not deleting him from my phone, I’m just not calling or expecting anything from him anymore. I feel a HUGE sigh of relief right now…
I realize that I’m not ready to take the risk that so many take when they fall in love. Not ready and that’s okay by me. ~shrugs~
It’s not like I know what I’m missing…and…I really enjoy my life the way it is. Man free…Worry free…