I’m trying not to cry.
I feel hopeless for just a moment. The shelter is full. People are being turned away. I ate so well today but I am sick, I have a cold and I’ve drank two cups of theraflu and I’m still achy.
This man next to me is annoying me and I feel like I don’t belong here and I’ll never be able to escape. I know I’m supposed to be strong and I’m trying to be the person I’m supposed to be but I feel like I’m stuck and this is bullshit I’m doing and I guess I’m just having a moment but I can’t call anyone because I don’t want to burden anyone because this was my choice.
I’m in a fuckin shelter. I could be on the streets. I know. I should be grateful but I am scared and I am feeling a little paranoid and I’m scared of not being able to pull myself out of this.
So now you know what’s inside my head right now.
I’m trying to teach women not to be afraid but I AM afraid right now.