Confusion

Wait.

I’m confused.

If, I met the Older Man 4 months ago, we haven’t slept together and he gets on my nerves all the time and I have to curse him out and tell him that I hate him so much yet no matter how I treat him he always comes when I need him and tells me he believes in me yet I really, really think that he’s not good to me and I try to end things with him because I want more time and attention and he refuses to give it then why…

Why have we not stopped talking to each other yet?

What’s going on here?

I never last this long talking to any one man and-

How come I still get excited in my heart when I see him?