Caught Slippin

I am so upset with myself.

Today it happened…again.

After asking my co worker if he arranged an interview with one of the radio show’s hosts for one of my upcoming features on the website, he stood up quickly and said, “Let’s take a walk.”

I like going on these sporadic “walks” with him because he always shows me something cool, but this afternoon I really didn’t have time because I gave myself a 5pm deadline to send a status update on my progress to my team and I had yet to pull it together.

But I walked with him anyway, through the beautiful office, around the corner, through a doorway and past some cubicles when I saw a group of people who seemed to be hanging outside of an office door talking. We stopped just outside the door as well because the contact person for the radio personality was inside. I smirked and leaned against the wall outside of the office as laughter drifted out to greet me.

A familiar face turned around and my eyes got wide.

Oh shit. The Company President.

“Hi, Ms. Tee!” he greeted me enthusiastically. His face lit up as though we were long lost friends.

I stood there wide eyed, frozen in shock.

I may have mumbled Hi but I don’t even think my lips produced a sound.

~sigh~

Speechless again… Just like the first time I met him. Just like the second time I saw him….

What the hell is going on?

I don’t know why I act like this around The Prez. I don’t think I have a crush on him…But you never know with me. After all, he IS single, handsome and brilliant. But…uh…it’s not really on my plate right now to be all aggressive and show him what I’m working with.

I’m tired of being the aggressor all the time. I want to be pursued. I want to be WANTED.

And I definitely don’t ever want to be caught flirting with the man who runs my company. NO WAY!

But again I don’t want to act like I’m star struck either. I need his wisdom so that I can grow. I need to develop a partnership with him because both he and I could be of use to each other in the future. My skills as a journalist and leader could help boost his company and his expertise at marketing and growing a business could help me to learn to market myself and one day grow my own business.

But it ain’t gonna happen if I keep freezing up everytime he is around. I can assure you this has never happened before.

~sigh~

I don’t know what the hell the problem is but I want it solved because…I don’t like feeling like a man intimidates me.

I am MS Muthafuckin Tee!

No man is too good or too brilliant or too handsome for me.

I gotta shake this off.

Next time I see him, we’re going to have a conversation. I’m going to be my regular, charming self. I’m gonna get some wisdom about being a business person and I’m going to roll on.

He ain’t gonna be causing me to slip up in my game plan, no matter how fine he is!

Hmmmph!