Last night was interesting.
I was sitting here all alone when I get a random text message from one of my old boyfriends from undergrad. He then called saying he’s in town and he wants to meet up to watch the Heat game. I have no issues with him so I tell him I’ll meet him and he comes to get me and we head to a sports bar.
I honestly don’t remember him watching the game at all. The whole time he’s asking me questions and grinning as I answer them. I told him all kinds of stories about my BBDD, my last crush, the women I’ve been dating. I even performed two of my favorite poems for him. He sat there with a goofy grin on his face the entire time. After about 2 hours we left and parked outside of my house.
He turned to me and started pouring out his heart about how much I meant to him back when we were together and how I changed his view of women and he still hasn’t met a woman like me. He said so many beautiful things about me being a real woman and I sat there in the passenger seat listening and smiling down at my hands. It felt good.
Then his hand went around my shoulder and he pulled me close and he…he kissed me.
I let him. I kissed him back but there were no fireworks on my end, I kept thinking of, you know who. I wanted it to be him.
Feeling the coolness of his lips on mine I tried to enjoy the experience. It’s been so long since I kissed anyone. So long since I’ve been touched. I pulled away and smiled, asking him, “Why did you do that?”
He glanced out the window and replied, “I’ve been wanting to do that for the past 3 1/2 hours.”
I laughed.
I continued talking and talking and he sat there nodding his head and smiling at me for about an hour.
“Let’s go inside,” he suggested.
“Nope.”
“Why not?”
“Cuz you don’t deserve no free pussy. You haven’t done anything yet.”
“Yet?” he asked. “That means I have a chance.”
“Oh. I don’t know if you do. There’s a certain type of treatment that I believe I deserve and you haven’t done that. But, I do plan to go inside and masturbate so maybe you can rub my pussy for me to get me started.”
He smiled at me, reached over and 2 minutes later I said, “Ooh thanks!”
I hopped out the car and waved before running inside laughing.
My phone rings minutes later and it’s him.
“Did you think I was going to call you again?” he asked.
“Nope.”
“Did you care?”
“Nope.”
“I thought so,” he said and was silent. “Tee, you are an awesome woman. I didn’t plan any of this. I just wanted to see you, watch the game and hear about your career and then you did it.”
“Did what?”
“You walked out of your house and sat in my car. As soon as I looked at you it was over; you’re beautiful AND smart.”
I laughed.
“Man,” he continued. “When we were young I didn’t know what to do with you. I couldn’t believe that someone so beautiful could like me back. You were always so real and so sure of what you wanted. I always liked that about you. I didn’t know if I was coming or going but you knew exactly what you wanted. How did you get like that?”
I was in my bed under the electric blanket by then and falling asleep.
“Tee. Will I hear from you later?”
“Nope.”
“I come down to Miami maybe 2-3 times a month. We’re going to see a lot more of each other.”
“Honestly, no we won’t. We won’t see each other again for quite a while. It’s because you didn’t treat me the way I know I deserve to be treated BUT since you admire me so much I WILL see you again sometime just not anytime soon.”
“Ok,” he replied reluctantly.
I hung up after saying good night.
I feel like I’m a princess. My feet shouldn’t touch the ground. I shouldn’t have to lift a finger. All my needs and wants should be met with delight by anyone who is around me. He didn’t do that.
I’m like this, if I can’t have exactly what I want then I won’t have anything at all. I won’t settle. One day someone is going to give me exactly what I require and it will be his pleasure and then I’ll make him happy in the way that pleases him…hmmm…or her.
I’m open minded man.
Now, to get my mind right. I have an audition today. My very audition for a role as an actress. It’s a DVD series that is about 4 seasons in and is gaining popularity and they want to add new characters to the storyline.
Let’s see what happens.