Today is such a beautiful day that I had to sit down and play the What If game…
Care to join me?
What if everything you wanted…came to you easily, under grace in perfect ways?
Then that would mean…
I’d be moving into my new home in Miami Shores in a few weeks by some miraculous way. It would be even nicer than my previous home which would blow my mind because my old place was the nicest place that I’ve seen since I’ve been back here.
It would be so cool if, instead of a go to the office job I got a grant or some kind of contract that gave me enough money to work from home. I met a man on SL the other day and he gets PAID to develop his virtual city and market it and speak about it from a educational perspective. Wouldn’t that be so cool if that happend to me?
Wouldn’t it be just great if my boys and I could walk into the book store and see my books on the shelves? Wouldn’t it be just fantastic if somehow, I started making even better youtube videos and someone somewhere saw it and decided that I should have my own show?
Wouldn’t it be crazy if..don’t laugh at me..but wouldn’t it be crazy if there actually WERE a man out there named Steve who happened to be everything that I imagined him to be and he was crazy about me?! LOL! He’d spoil me and pamper me and then turn around and make sure that no one ever fucked with me. He’d care so much about my happiness and welfare that it would be his priority. He’d LIVE to see me content and taken care of. LOL!
And what about..this is too much fun..what if I really did get to the point where my work and my writing and my vision earned me enough respect where instead of having to go to school for a doctorate, I was given an honorary doctorate?
And hey…what if, you know I used to want to be an AKA right? What if they made me an honorary AKA because of all of my contributions to literature and society?
What if my boys never, ever experience any of the things that I feared would happen? What if they grow up to be fine young men and are aware of the mistakes their father and I made so they are careful not to repeat them?
What if…I met Kanye, right and he asked me to spit poetry on his next album? And what about…Oprah asking me, no BEGGING me, to write her official autobiography…That would be cool.
What if I became the next HOT thing in journalism and my work started receiving awards because of its uniqueness? What if all these seeds I am planting by being positive and supporting others came right back to me and I was BLOWN AWAY by the fruits?
What if I was able to walk up to my Mama and say, “I’m remodeling your house for you.” And then walk up to my Stepfather and say, “Ok, here’s your check, you don’t have to work anymore.”
What if…all my dreams came true, the positive ones anyway?
What if thy aren’t really dreams at all? What if they are God’s way of communicating to me, what kind of future he has in store for me?
What if?