Well, I was approved for my car loan, but I redid my budget and it seems as if I dont have enough to pay the car payment AND pay my tithes. So, obviously Im not getting a car anytime soon. I’m not worried. God says “TRY ME!” when it comes to tithes and offerings. If you are faithful with your tithes, He will open up the heavens and pour out his blessings on you.

You wonder why some people are stressed financially? They arent faithful tithers. Ever since I heard this promise and actually got a job so that I had some income, I held on to the promise that no matter what, as long as I tithed I would always have enough.

ANd Im not rich, but I get to go to Walmart whenever I want and buy my babies clothes and I get to buy accessories when I have somewhere nice to go, and I love buying little chokers, earrings and necklaces. I dont ask for much, just enough to make me feel safe.

If my car gets worse, its already limping, then I guess Ill have to go get a cash car. Which wont be that bad. I guess.

Anyway, Im finally getting into the flow of things at my job. If you show me something once, I have it down, it doesnt take me much time, you just have to show me and not expect me to figure it out for myself.

I got a treat this week. I got to speak to Anna AND Tamara! All in one week! That never happens. Anna lives back home in Miami and Tamara is in Tallahassee. Anna broke her foot so she’s home instead of finishing up her internship. Strangely enough shes not stressed about it. But you know, Anna was always like that, where I would expect the worse to happen, she expects the best. When I asked her how she was doing, she just said, “I guess God is trying to slow me down. I know He’s protecting me from something.”

Im glad she’s pursuing her relationship with God. It’s amazing when the friends you used to go buck wild with, want to turn it all over to Christ. The strange thing is, my other bestfriend Tamara is doing the same thing. I never thought she would. It never really crossed my mind but here she is, praying more, reading her word and attending a Bible study.

I just pray that I dont push them too much. You know how it is, when you been doing the saved thing for longer and you try to force your friends to do everything exactly like you do it? Thats wrong. And it actually pushes them away from God. It makes them feel bad about what they have already accomplished in Christ. Everyone has their own place, dont encourage them in their sin, but dont beat them up because they are not convicted the same ways that you are. They will have to answer for themselves one day. All you can do is be a light. Live right in front of them and share, SHARE, SHARE what God is doing in your life.

i’m not a perfect disciplemaker nor am I a perfect disciple. ~sigh. Though I wish I could get it right. I wish my heart would change. Im so obstinate about relationships with people.