Trying To Be Better


It’s crazy. My show went alright yesterday. I still don’t have a permanent DJ or cameraman and DEEP isn’t really helping like he said he would. Honestly, I’m not that good of a host. I stumble over my words and I don’t ask great questions, in my opinion.

I want to be better but I guess that will take practice. In the meantime, I’m meeting other hosts and watching them do their thing and wishing I could be better at what I do.
I’ve been realizing something interesting lately…I think I’m jealous of certain aspects of my friends lives. But oh well…I’m not a hater so…it doesn’t matter.
I got a tarot reading yesterday and the cards said a lot of things but what stood out for me was that I would be getting a lot of shine from one of my projects and love was not in my immediate future…but a new lover would be. hmmm…I don’t know. I don’t want a new lover and no love.