Today after I decided to cut things off with the older man (again- I can’t do it. I can’t trust. It’s too hard.) I had this vision of him sitting there watching me talk and it reminded me of the Counselor. Hmm. I scratched my head. They both watched me speak with the same expression and body language. They wore the same dress shirts and slacks in the same style. They both wore glasses.
Hmmm.
Then it made me think of The Prez. He had the same nerdy swagger too. Same glasses too. He was from an affluent background and I figured that the Counselor was too because of the comments he made about people. With his point of view, I could tell he had no understanding of the hood life or the REAL struggle for self worth and financial sustenance.
And, you know what, although I have no clue about the Older Man’s background because he won’t talk about it, when I think about it, some of the comments he made kind of resemble the Counselor’s point of view. Maybe he’s from a similar background too.
Wow. I’m rotating fantasy crushes and they’re all the same type of guy. All of these crushes existed only in my mind and none of them are ever really attracted to me back.
What is it about these type of men that I like so much? Why am I attracted to men who are such a mismatch for me?
~scratching head~