It was just a “look” he gave me. I don’t know what it meant really.
I’d be in my counseling session all frantic and upset feeling crazy about not being able to get past the issues I have with men. I’d sometimes cry and get angry and he’d say, “Tee, you KNOW how to stop this.”
And I’d get mad and say, “If I knew how to stop it I’d be doing it!”
Then I’d look at him.
And then I’d stop.
I still don’t know what he was talking about but it worked.
So now, I’m going through this inner turmoil and to stop myself I think of him and that “look” and then I’ll calm down.
Cuz somehow I think maybe it meant it was a conscious choice for me not to be frantic and upset. But I don’t know.
All I know is, it worked.
And I still remember that “look” and its calming affect on me.
And I miss that.