It started with lots of numbness. I would feel my hand fall asleep a lot. My right hand in particular, all the way up to my elbow.
Then as I started working again, I would find that my fingers would freeze up. I had to ask the dishwasher to open jars for me when my sidework required me to refill the salad dressings.
Now, I’m a little scared. I’ve been creating books, videos and writing with my hands for so many, many years that it seems I have carpal tunnel syndrome and even though there are exercises to help ease the pain, there is really no cure.
What if you were a vocalist and your throat became infected? What if you were a seamstress and you lost an arm?
I write. That’s what I do. I type without looking at the keyboard and it’s like magic as i watch the screen and my thoughts are articulated so perfectly. I don’t get the same magic when I speak. I’m trying to rest my fingers as much as possible. I massage them all the time, even at work so they’ll be loose. I don’t know what else I can do besides pray for a miracle. I have so many more articles to write. I have so man more books left in me. Even as I type this my fingers are becoming stiff which is signaling for me to stop and rest.
I just can’t lose my magic touch. I don’t know what I would do. The thought is making me so sad.