My sons started school today.
I called them to see how their day went. “What grade are you in now?” I asked my 7 year old just so I could hear him say it.
“2nd!” he replied happily. “I’m in gifted.”
Wow. I remember when his little behind used to go hide behind the blinds and boo boo on the floor. I’d catch him in the act and say, “Sugarbear! The bathroom is THAT way!”
My 5 year old started kindergarten today. His Dad says that he cried when he tried to leave but when he picked him up he said he had fun. I’m so proud of my boys!
While they are beginning yet another year of school, their Mama is in Texas feeling the heat of an important life lesson learned. I can see how this lesson will help me grow as a professional as I remind myself to keep my eye on the prize and I humbly admit my mistakes and work to make them right again.
Tomorrow I will begin to make amends by contacting my former director and The Prez, apologizing for my behavior and letting them know what I have learned. It’s going to be hard, I’ll have to swallow my pride and accept whatever their responses will be.
Sade said it best when she sang Love Is Stronger Than Pride. My love for my sons, my career and giving my gift is stronger than pride so I will focus on the fact that I need a stable income to be able to get my boys back. I don’t consider this giving up, I consider it to be a part of my growth. Eventually I’ll be the owner of my own corporate office and there’s plenty to learn until I get there. Hopefully, they will give me another chance, if not, I’ll be free to go and receive whatever else God has for me.
Either way, I’m stronger, wiser and ready to learn as much as I can until it is my turn to hold the reins.