My Tuesday chat with readers last night went well. Three people logged on to chat with me. One person from Cincinnati, my regular chat buddy from Queens, NY and a reader named Tara from New Jersey.
They asked me all kinds of questions that made me laugh like:
What would you say if your BBDD tried to holla at you?
Um…Eww..Holla back!
What would you say if The Prez called you?
Go to hell! Naw..I’m just playin. I haven’t decided what I would say yet. I’m kinda mad because he never tried before but I never really actually TOLD him I liked him. LOL!
Do you think he reads your blog?
I wondered about that but I have no idea.
When you wrote that post where you were drunk, was that real?
Yeah! When you’re all alone in a city and you have no friends you have to learn how to entertain yourself!
Who wrote those letters from the exes?
My friend Lem wrote one and JB wrote the other one.
Sometimes you are vague when you write and other times I feel like you’re being so real. Why be vague?
Well..I try not to write anything negative about people. Even when I was at my last job I was not really waking up happy to go there towards the end. But I still tried to only say positive things. That’s why people were so shocked when I left. I’m usually vague when I’m trying to hide the identity of the person I’m writing about. Everyone knows that I write about everything but I still want to respect people’s privacy.
We chatted for well over an hour and a half and all 3 of my readers blessed me and sent out well wishes over my life. It really encouraged me! Thanks!
I spoke with Kim today. She’s in Atlanta right now picking up the last of her things before she drives back to Chicago to get her hustle on.
Talking with Kim is like…Whoa! I always hang up feeling so refreshed and focused on where I need to go in Christ. It’s as though she is right here with me blessing me everyday.
Shawna called me today as well after reading my last post. She gave me a sermon on how to give God your best and trust Him to do the rest. I only call it a sermon because she told me that her secret desire is to be a pastor. I think she’d make a great one. Although she admits that she sometimes want to shake me for the decisions that I make, she also understands that what makes her happy and content may not make me happy.
“I could look at you and tell you that I would never live life like you do,” she said. “But then you could look at me and say the same thing. That’s why I just try to support what you’re doing by giving words of wisdom when I can.”
She blesses me!
I just hung up the phone with Leon. He called to check up on me and tell me about the new car he bought his wife. Leon’s marriage is so special. Sometimes I have to ask him if he is for real. He says that his wife takes such good care of him and never tells him no when he asks for something and that’s why he will never say no to any of her requests. He also says that he doesn’t feel like he deserves a woman like her but he feels that God is showing him unconditonal love through his wife.
Amazing!
I’m hoping that it is becoming an epidemic. All around me I’m beginning to notice men who honor the women in their lives. Remember Ross, the photographer? Well, he got engaged last week. Take a look at his engagement slide show. It’s great! He planned a surprise engagement for her under the guise of a photo shoot and he even hired a private chef to make them dinner and had an artist perform spoken word for her. Dude..he WASHED HER FEET! That was soo sweet.
The best thing about meeting Ross was hearing his love story. The way he spoke about her with so much honor and awe just blew me away. He told me that through all of the women he had dated, she was the only one who let him be himself. He was raised to be a gentleman and the women he was with didn’t like him trying to be a man and take care of them. “She lets me be the man,” he said. “I appreciate that.”
I was reviewing an old email I sent to a woman a while ago. It outlined some of the things I hoped for in my life and one of them was finding a medium to give my gift of inspiration. I was hoping that I could find a business that could use my talents but now I see that it wasn’t meant to be. I accomplished my dream by creating my own vehicle of expression. When no door presents itself, take out your pen and paper and draw your own.
I’m feeling so good right now. Better than I have ever felt before. You know that feeling you get when you wake up from a good nap and then go to the bathroom to pee?Mmmm…Yeah that’s how I feel? Relieved…
No, I haven’t received my blessing yet but I can count how many times God has come through for me, sometimes placing me in uncomfortable situations in order to push me into the next phase of my journey.
Think about how I was in Miami. I couldn’t find a job. I was depressed and my mind was twisted up. He opened the door for me to go to Atlanta and work for a magazine.
Remember when I was looking for an apartment in Atlanta and all kinds of obstacles presented themselves. I was so frustrated! When I decided to move into a place on a month to month basis, look what happened, an opportunity presented itself in Houston and I wasn’t tied down by a lease so I was free to go.
What about the time in Houston when I was looking for an apartment? I finally found one but the same WEEK I was about to sign a lease, the job opportunity here in Dallas presented itself. Though I didn’t actually KNOW that I would be offered the job, in my heart I knew it was for me and I followed my peace and came here.
So now I am in my apartment in Dallas and I love this city, I love who I am. I don’t believe that God would bless me with this apartment and the peace to sign a lease if He wanted me to leave. He even gave me a bed so that I would be more comfortable just as I asked Him if I should stay or not.
Sometimes you have to look at the past in order to get you through your circumstances. And my past lets me know that God is always right on time in every situation. Who knows, this may or may not be the place of blessing for me but I know that right now I am blessed.
And I’ll be blessed tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after, no matter what happens. I’m open to being positioned by Him. I embrace the signs He sends my way and I will follow His lead no matter what anyone else says.
Miracle shall follow miracle…