Let’s Grow Together

Did You Buy The Book Yet?

(This is not the only cover in print at this time. Your copy may look different.)

Please go to your local bookstore and buy this book. It is only $9 and it has rocked my world since I began reading it.

This book is so powerful that I want to share my growth with you. While I am reading this book I will not write another story about my journey in Houston. I will only discuss the most fascinating principles that are presented to me and once I am done with the entire book, then I will continue to share the blessings of God and what He has done in my life.

Please buy the book, read along and grow with me.

The enlightened man, therefore, endeavors to perfect himself upon his neighbor. His work is to himself, to send out goodwill and blessings to every man, and the marvelous thing is, that if one blesses a man he has no power to harm him.

I’m scratching my head and wondering if I have any enemies. To my knowledge I have none so I will consider the people who speak, think and act ill toward me in the place of the word “enemy”.

When I read this passage for the first time I immediately thought of two people. First, my Baby Daddy, who, to this day, can’t even answer the phone when I call without barking at me or acting like I am irritating him. Even when I call to discuss the boys he reacts in the same manner and for a while it frustrated me because we broke up more than 5 years ago. Since then, in all honesty, I have not done a thing to try to hurt this man or spoken ill of him or even plotted against him in any way. In his imagination, I suppose, I am this spiteful woman who is jealous and bitter because we are not together but anyone who knows me KNOWS I expect more from my future mate than what he has shown me he is capable of.

Even when I send him messages of gratitude via postal mail, text message or email, he ignores them. When I am nice to him, it seems to irritate him even more. That hurt me for a long time but no more. Even if he won’t receive my blessings, I will still bless him and continue to pray for him.

I will continue to treat him the way that I believe he should treat me as the mother of his children. I bless him and I am not afraid. Many people warn me to be careful because he is a lawyer and he has my children right now. They fear that he will trick me and I will never get my kids back.

To that I say- NO WAY! My sons being with their father right now is a part of God’s divine plan for my life. They are safe, happy and well taken care of. Even though he THINKS he is hurting me, he is not. He is simply a tool being used by God to push me toward my destiny. I will never fear what he can or can not do. He does not rule my world. He does not control my destiny.

The principle states that if I bless him, he will have no power to harm me and I receive that, in Jesus name. Amen. I will get my kids back when it is time.

The only other person I can think of who has ill will toward me is a woman that I used to work with. I have never met a woman like her in my life. Sometimes I would sit back in amazement at the recognition of her character, disguised behind a label of “woman of God”. It shook me to my foundation to interact with her because I had never encountered a woman with such a spirit in my life. To lie and plot to hurt someone’s feelings and discredit them shows her blatant insecurity and dissatisfaction with her own life. I thought women like that only existed in movie plots.

Today I will let go of my distaste of her behavior. I bless her to prosper and she will receive a copy of this book in the mail, as a blessing to her. I only pray that she reads it and finds peace and satisfaction within herself.

I bless you both and I send out to you my prayers and apologies for ever reacting in a manner that did not demonstrate God’s love.

Good-will produces an aura of protection about the one who sends it.

Unbeknownst to me God wove me together with a fabric laced with unconditional love. He also gave me a heart to uplift and show appreciation for everyone who comes in contact with me. At times I felt ashamed of being this way because I felt like it made me seem like a kiss-up. And sometimes the recipient of my praise and honor would push me away causing me to feel like an idiot for trying so hard to show them that they are admirable and worthy of my praise.

I still continued to love like this appreciating those who were whole enough to receive my love and kindness and feeling bad that others could not handle it and ran away.

Why was I able to stupidly fuck around with random men, lose so many jobs, move to cities I had never been to and live QUITE LOVELY with little to no income?

I am protected. The law of Karma won’t allow me to fall because God made me into a person who always tries to spread goodwill. I am compulsive about it actually and it used to be a burden but now I count it my joy. My efforts at being a good person to all I meet were seeds I had sown so long ago and I am reaping the rewards of those seeds right now. I am healthy, safe and positioned to prosper.

I can not lose anything that belongs to me by divine right.

Over the years you have watched as I have lost many jobs, endured failed attempts at romantic relationships and seemed to fail at making a peaceful connection with the father of my children.

Today I say…That’s okay. Nothing which God has planned for me can ever be taken away. My divine right to my blessings and my future are mine and will not be altered by man. I can not lose any friends/men/jobs/ideas that belongs to me by divine right.

If any of these things were lost, it is because they were not mine to begin with. Like Ruby told me the other day, “If it was supposed to work out, then it would have worked out.”

I receive that and I will no longer live in fear that my past will repeat itself in future endeavors or relationships. I “lost” those things/people because they had no place in my life in the first place.

Just as my friends were cheering when I told them about the job offer at the school, which would come with a free apartment- only to find out later that I did not get the job which seemed PROMISED after all. I was sick the whole day that happened. I couldn’t eat or sleep or even talk on the phone. But what happened by the end of the day?

I got a phone call from the publisher of the newspaper asking me to come in the next day to begin work.

What is divinely mine can not be taken away from me. What I believed was a good thing and seemed to be a blessing from God to remedy my lack of housing and my lack of income turned out not to be from God and I know this because…if it was a gift from God, I would have it right now.

My divine right to God’s destiny for my life can not be denied by man. If it walked or ran away, it was not mine to begin with and I will rejoice knowing that every rejection guides me toward my true destiny in Christ.

So long as a man resists a situation, he will have it with him. If he runs away from it, it will run after him. Agree with the adverse situation quickly and it will go away.

How many years have I floated through life expecting all men to belittle me, scream at me and beat me down with their criticism the way my stepfather did when I was a child? How many men have I met who have done this same thing to me even now as an adult?

My fear of men had overtaken my life so much so that I would cringe in fright if I saw a man approaching me, even if he wore a smile. I just “knew” that he would love me for a little while and then get to know me and then use all of his strength to crush me and tell me how dumb/unrealistic/unsuccessful/unfit for him I was.

And guess what? I got just that.

I will no longer run away from men. They have no power to label or hurt me. I will stand up to the thing that I feared most and give nothing but love. I will expect nothing but love. I will receive love, appreciation and gentle affection from this day forward. I will command the respect that I give and I will continue to love the way that I know how.

I will not run away. I will not hide. I will face this monstrous fear boldly knowing that God wants to show me a different side of men. God is my ghost buster and all of those ghouls will be eliminated as I walk in this new truth.

One is often cured of his faults by seeing them in others. Life is a mirror and we find only ourselves reflected in our associates.

When I moved to Texas I continued to meet people who reminded me of myself. In onewoman I saw the giving heart, the love of sillyness and laughter. The longing for unconditional love and the desire to receive that love through my good deeds.

In another woman I saw the self centeredness. The brattiness and the idea that the whole world should bow down to my every whim because I am great and everyone should know it.

When I met both of them I saw myself so much in them that it scared me. Knowing this woman has shown me a side of myself that I can not allow to surface for much longer. I can’t have every single conversation be all about ME. I can’t continue to expect things my way all the time. I have to give more and be willing to focus on others more. I want to change.

I can also greatly appreciate the friends I have had for a long time. I admire them and look up to them so much that I tend to put myself a step below them. But how can I have such wonderful friends if I were not a wonderful friend?

The mere fact that Tamara is my bestfriend proves that I am a woman who is trustworthy, loyal, smart, beautiful and warm. Because she has proven to be those things—so am I.

I am a reflection of the company I keep and I am proud of that.

Living in the past is a failure method and a violation of spiritual law.

I once told a man, “I really like you. I’d like to give this a try.”
To which he replied, “But how can you say you will be faithful to me when you know you have never been faithful in the past?”
“Because I said I can,” I replied firmly.
“But your past actions are an indication of your future actions. How do you know that you won’t do it again?”
“Because I’m saying I’m not.” I said, trying to convince him.

He was never convinced. He continued to negate every good thing I said about being honorable and faithful to him. When I would say, “I think you’re so wonderful and I can’t get you off of my mind.” He would respond by saying, “Oh, it’s just a phase.”

Yeah. I really stuck it out through all of that.

But he was right. It was just a phase. A phase that should have ended much sooner.

How dare someone throw my past in my face when I shared with them in honesty because I wanted to be completely open with them? I had not even THOUGHT about being with another man the entire time we were “dealing” so it hurt even more that he would accuse me in that way.

That is not a friend. He basically called me a liar to my face and I sat there for months, pleading with him to forget my past and believe my words.

I don’t have to beg God to do that. And I will never do that again with a man.

My past is my past and I can do nothing about all of that. I will rejoice in memory of the good times and rejoice over the resolution of the bad times. All bad things must come to an end. And that end is NOW.

I will not carry that crap over into my present or my future. I will not negate my blessings because of past mistakes. I will walk ahead with a clean slate and an open heart, ready to receive all that God has for me.

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More to come… If God has spoken to you through these words, please leave a comment or an email and let me know how any of these principles apply to YOUR life.