Learning & Growing

I’m still blowed, perplexed and uncomfortable about my recent revelation.

I can’t even STOP the endless thoughts of the train of opportunities that I messed up. My heart aches.

But just like I had to learn other hard lessons in my life, I had to learn this one too and I’ll use it as an opportunity to be better next time.

I can’t go backward. I can only move forward and really focus on my given path, understanding that God allows for mistakes to be made and once we’ve learned the lesson, we can still move forward.

I pray for an opportunity to show my growth. I pray for an opportunity to make those bad decisions I’ve made in the past, right again.

I’ve decided to use my new lesson in all areas of my life. Especially with relationships.

In the past, once someone made me upset or showed me a part of their character that I didn’t find appealing, I’d slink away, never to be seen again. Someone once mentioned to me the warning, “don’t burn your bridges” but I didn’t understand what that meant. But now I do.

Before I walk away or correct someone harshly, I’m going to stop and think, “What does this relationship mean to me? How can I make the best of this situation while still holding on to my dignity?”

Ohhh..My heart hurts but I know I’ll grow past this.

I am not a lost cause…I am just…learning and growing. I will learn to channel my emotions into my creative work and leave them OUT of business decisions.

Forgive me.