This week God blessed me with $125. I was so excited thinking about all the food I could buy with this money as I waited for my next lead from Him as to where I should go and what I should do.
Before I could spend any of it, my friend called me and mentioned that she is fasting in part because she doesn’t have money for food. I sent her $50 immediately and made plans to go grocery shopping with the rest.
This morning Kim called me and told me that she received her blessing to pay her first mortgage note but it left her short on her car note. Immediately I sent her the rest of my money so now she’s squared away.
I’m always eager to give and being able to give blesses me and brings me JOY. Even though I knew that in giving I would again be down to nothing, I trust that God is my supply and just as He blessed me with that money He can bless me again. It’s called being a fearless spender.
I’m not spending my money unwisely. God can trust me with it. If I have money and I see a need in my life or someone close to me, I don’t horde my money expecting it to multiply in my bank account, I spend it. I spend money when I need to. I give where it is needed and God always replaces it.
After giving my last money today I sat back as slurped my ramen noodles, thanking God for the opportunity to bless Kim because she has carried me on more than one occasion. She got my car fixed for me one time and once she even paid my car note for me. When I try to thank her she just says, “We’re in this together.”
And we are.
My supply is hers. Her supply is mine. If I need gas money and I don’t have it, she will give. If she needs her hair done and I have it, she gets her perm. There’s no question of when she will pay me back and there are absolutely no loans. We give out of love as if God is providing through us.
So today I was on my laptop feeling great about being able to help her pay her car note when I got an email from paypal saying that a reader had donated $50 to me. I sat there stunned. My entire body tingled. I cried and I praised God for the quick turn around.
I believe that God is my supply and He led the reader to donate to me just as I emptied my account to bless Kim.
I can’t even say how grateful I am. I don’t feel like I deserve any of the blessings that God gives me because ya’ll know I’m still trying to figure things out but I’m just…so happy that I can actually SEE the law of reaping and sowing working in my life.
I can SEE it, I can FEEL it and I am at peace about the decisions that I have to make.
I prayed that God would join me to the people He has for me. All of the phone calls I make to market myself and to introduce my skills to publications are not in vain. The RIGHT company will contact me back SOON and ask me to join their team. If they don’t call me back that means that they weren’t destined to benefit from my expertise.
I spoke with Tamara today and she was so happy even though her fiance bowed out of the pre-marital counseling that they arranged. “Tee! I was hurt but..don’t you see! I feel like I’m riding in a car but I’m not driving,” she said. “I have not had to make one decision about my life direction, I feel like God is making them FOR me! God is driving!”
He is.
And since I love to be the passenger, I’ma kick back and listen to my baby Kanye while God steers the way.