Day 5 NaNoWriMo

What have I gotten myself into?

This is more than just a novel, this is representative of my life. Can I make a goal for myself and stick to it, even if involves a little pressure? Yes, I’ve done it before. But this is different.

I mean, it’s easy to write about myself. I can do that all day; What am I doing now, what I would like to be in the future, how much I’d love to meet Nick Cannon. But to actually sit down and make up a story that goes on and on and on and have it make some type of sense is- well, draining.

Every night I sit down in front of my computer and I think to myself, “OK, what’s gonna happen next?” I sip some juice, eat a cookie, make a phone call and stare at the blank screen for at least an hour. Then I realize it’s getting late so I HAVE to at least write a sentence that will lead to my 2,000 word daily goal.

I get encouragement from my girl Anna. She reads everyday and tells me I’m great, but isn’t that what your bestfriend is supposed to say?

Whoa! I have a whole new respect for novelists. It’s fun, but it’s a lot of pressure. And I know I’m wrong for pressuring myself because the NaNoWriMo website says that your story is supposed to be a bunch of crap since there is no editing or revising. You’re just supposed to let your mind flow and focus on actually writing the 50,000 words. But I can’t, cuz I want my characters to have depth and I want to develop their relationships and all these other things that shouldn’t matter right now.

I even considered the fact that my work on the internet is an easy target for plagiarizers. So, I read up on copyrighting and it turns out my work is copyrighted, but that doesn’t mean my ideas are. But hey, I love you all so much, cuz it keeps me accountable that I know you are checking my other site to make sure I keep writing.

A Word For Myself

Come on Ms. Tee, you can do this. You can sit here and write and just have fun doing it. You can let your mind flow and worry about imagery and perfect dialogue and transitions later. This is your FIRST novel girl! Have fun and make a mess. That way your SECOND novel will be GREAT in comparison.

Wow, it’s so great when you can encourage yourself.

A quick break and then back to Day 5 of the CHALLENGE!

Good luck to the other bloggers who are taking the challenge.