The Blessing Of My Boys

Man… I feel so blessed.

Today I received my first home cooked meal in Dallas. One of my co workers invited me to her house for a meal of homemade soup and salad. We laughed and she showed me her blog and I played with her dog and we went driving through the city and she showed me some of her favorite spots including a handmade icecream shop.

My belly is a little too full (and too flabby if you ask me but oh well…I’m only human).

I had such a great time with her that I still can’t get over the fact that of all of the women in my URBAN office, the ONE woman who invites me to her home to hang out is a WHITE CHICK.

I hung out with a white girl today. And we had a good time.

I’m not gonna be all hasty like I was with Kia and call her my “friend” but I can definitely tolerate her personality and I wouldn’t mind hanging out with her again. She was sweet although plenty of people at the office look at her sideways. I think it’s mainly because people are always looking for a reason to dislike someone.

I see those fake smiles and I just laugh. Ofcourse you don’t like her, look at the quality of your heart. Anyone who loves themselves and is happy would show LOVE to the people they meet. Anything other than that demonstrates clearly that you are unhappy in your life.

But I digress…

Ain’t nothing else going on but I’m working hard and loving working hard cuz I’m such a nerd. My goal is to research internet journalism awards and win a lot of awards for the site before I move on to my next destination: television.

Ahh..I really like working on the internet though. With the internet there are no rules. You can make up your own and you can combine ALL of the mediums; radio (podcasting), television (streaming video), magazine style features, and news all in one place. You can even publish books (ebooks) and teach live classes! There’s no limit on the INTERNET BABY!

I love the fucking internet!

Maybe I’ll be the first Internet Media mogul.

It’s funny how my dream has always been to manage a website, create the vision, develop content, manage writers, assign stories and win awards.

Remember when I tried to do that at the PR firm? She shut me down saying that I had too much of an entreprenural spirit.

Remember how the opportunity ALMOST came through in Houston?

Ofcourse there were so many times when I tried to start my own website (after my original ezine ofcourse) but things just didn’t fall through.

I finally feel like I’m doing what I want to do except I’m itching to get this internet thing down pat cuz…I need the experience in REAL television to make me more well rounded since I’ve already done magazines, newspapers and now..internet journalism.

On the romantic fantasy relationship tip:

Kanye and The Prez are battling it out in my mind again. I honestly can’t choose which one to be with. I guess I’ll have to go with whoever treats me the best and presents the best business plan proposal for our lives together.

Remember it’s not just about LOVE, its about building a firm foundation for our children so that they will NEVER have to go through the things I have been through. My boys will be well supported in everything they want to do just like Kanye’s Mama supported him. They will walk right into their blessing right after they are done with their schooling. I’m going to make sure of that. My struggle eliminates theirs.

That is what this is all about.

I sometimes sit and imagine my sons all grown up and prosperous. They are gonna be such NERDS! ~smile~ Just like I like’em.

My older son is so disciplined like his Daddy. I can see him running a corporation and becoming a great leader. My younger son is so charismatic and cute. He has a tender heart and I already know he’s going to be married at an early age and his focus will be primarily family.

They will be so well adjusted and appreciative of life. I will always teach them to be fearless in their lifestyle and to make it a goal to help improve the lives of others.

As much as I want to be a blessing to others by helping them to achieve their goals, I believe my sons will be an even bigger blessing to this world than I could ever imagine.

I can’t wait to hug and kiss them as grown men who have fulfilled their purpose in life.

I can’t wait to see them again!