I don’t know what to say…
I am so ashamed.
Yes, I’ve been going to class. Yes, I’ve been pitching stories to editors. Yes, I’ve been going through the process of trying to find a ‘regular’ job but…
I haven’t done ANY WRITING AT ALL.
It’s…It’s… It’s Second Life.
I think I’m addicted.
In my therapy classes we define an addiction as an activity or habit that you allow to take the place of your regular functioning activities.
And it is quite like that with me and Second Life. My avatar is having a BLAST!
But…
I have two research papers due in less than a week, a presentation and two articles due in two days and I have not started ANY of them…
~shame~
No, I really feel bad.
I don’t get it. It’s not like I’m a GAMER. I hate video games and games…period. I cringe when someone offers a card game for fun. I hate monoploy and scrabble and all that. ~sigh~
But Second Life…I don’t know what it is…I wasn’t even into Myspace like that. I never went around placing HELLO graphics on anyone’s page and on Facebook I never wrote notes or participated in the stuff they have there. I just wasn’t into it. I thought it was a waste of time.
But Second Life…
Ahhh….Second Life…
It’s like a whole Second Life…
And you can make it whatever you want. You can shop til you drop or converse with a never ending supply of people. You can rent an apartment or buy a home, look for jobs or just party all day meeting people from all over the world.
Tonight after class I went to a listening party in Second Life that was being broadcast live in a club in NY on Times Square. At the Real Life party (I’m told) there was a screen where people there could watch the party on Second Life and all of our avatars dancing around. We could hear all the music being played at the Listening party for this artist named Cactuz and we could hear the people cheering and enjoying themselves as we partied in our virtual world.
Tonight I bit the bullet and decided that it was time to pull the plug on SL, at least for now. I uninstalled the program from my computer and I won’t be re installing it until after next week when my final papers have been completed.
I already feel like there’s a void in my life.
No, I didn’t meet anyone special while I was there, but damn…it’s crazy, I have been thoroughly enjoying the experience. I always say, “Oh, I’ll go on for an hour…” But then one hour turns to FIVE and then I’m tired and then I want to shop some more and then I meet someone new and we go exploring and then…and then..and then…
Man…
But I have articles to write, I have papers to write and I can’t mess up when I’ve been doing so well in school…
I can’t believe this thing took over like that. I didn’t even think about calling Kim at all since I’ve been on SL. It never even crossed my mind.
I need to get it together because REAL LIFE is calling.
~sigh~
Yeah…technology is a muthasucka.