~sigh~
I heard Kanye and his fiance broke up… I think I’m in love with him again. I’m trying to stop it. Really I am. It’s just…After his Mom died I couldn’t even stand to hear his voice because it made me so sad for him. I finally got back to a place where I can listen to his music and appreciate him for his brilliant spirit again. It moves me to tears because I feel like I’m walking the same path he walked and it makes me feel better about my life.
I hate that I’m always crushing on men who are absolutely unavailable to me. It’s pointless.
Yesterday I decided that I wasn’t going to be all goo goo over any guy ever again unless he was goo goo over me too. I put certain men, like Donovan Daniels, The Prez and my Ex Bernard and other fools like DL Dell on a pedestal when they really don’t deserve that shit. None of them has ever done anything remarkable for me.
I know what it is. I treat people how I want them to treat me. I adore certain men because I hope that they will adore me too.
They never do.
So I’m gonna let that go..none of those dudes were worth it…or me.
But..I think I’m gonna hang on to Kanye for now..
I just..like him. Shit..ain’t no harm in that, really.
His sexy ass!
Our kids are gonna be so cute and smart!