Oh Lord…
I just finished hanging out with my brother and we had such a good time! We was vibin and watching videos and talking, right in my biological father’s bedroom. This is the house they all grew up in and he did not take good care of it. It’s falling apart and with no women in the house, you can imagine what it was looking like in here. LOL!
But I’m trying to add a woman’s touch by actually CLEANING UP (can u believe it? Me?) and buying small things to add a woman’s touch. My brothers tell me how much they appreciate me everyday. They love me. I have never felt more loved actually. Well, except when I’m with my sons. I saw them today. It was magic. Always is. I swear no matter what, my boys and I have this crazy love connection. Those are my boys.
You know…My phone is off and honestly I’ve been enjoying having it off because I just come and I go and I’m in the wind with no ties to anyone! That shit feels great!
Maybe I can somehow turn my main mode of communication into the internet and leave my phone off. I don’t know…I’m trippin. It just feels so good not to be tied to answering it.
Lord..I think some drama is about to pop off at work. LOL! Nah..I’m doing well. This is a very prestigious Red Lobster, like, number 2 in the country overall. I’m getting better and tonight they gave me a big section all by myself. I was a bit overwhelmed, I didn’t rest for a minute but I got it done and all of my customers were smiling and happy when they left so I did a good job.
But I was at work rubbing my shoulders because my arm muscles were hurting and one of the guys in the back said, “Make sure your man at home rubs that for you.”
Everybody paused as I laughed and walked away.
Then he said, “You know what that means? She ain’t got none.”
I rolled my eyes.
“Nah… he whispered.
Then all of a sudden… all eyes were on me. All the grill masters and all the back help. I felt like running away. Please don’t let none of them try to talk to me! Please! I wanna be cool with them all but not in the way that they think they can become familiar with me. I mean….Even though they are all FINE. I mean like cuties! All of dem! I have to look the other way everytime but its hard cuz they are all cute. But..yeah….I’m not interested in men right now. Gosh…it always comes to this.
Damn…I’m sitting with my other brother and he’s playing these DVDs of music videos and the video for Knock You Down with Kanye is on. Kanye looks so fine! Chile..I had to take a moment of silent meditation. That video was FIRE! It took all of my energy! Damn that video was good as hell!
Man. School starts again this week. God..please help me to do the best I can. I am almost done. Man…let me get this degree. This is my last one. Let me just get it and go. No more hassle and drama and crap.
And…
Let me add something nice to someone’s life tomorrow.
I got to see my sons today. We vibed it out and reconnected like magic. Now THAT is a great thought to go to sleep to…