YAY!

My boys are gone with their daddy. Yes, he picked them up for his monthly visit this morning and they will be returning tomorrow afternoon. He lives out of town and hes a lawyer so hes busy and cant make it here that often. Its fine by me. Im used to taking care of them by myself.

Me and my baby daddy didnt always get along. I realize it was because he was trying to distance himself from me by being mean to me because he wanted to make sure that I KNEW he didnt want to be with me anymore. He didnt play mind games about that. He didnt go back and forth, he REALLY showed in every word he spoke and every action he made that he was no longer interested. I was so depressed for months. I mean, we do have two kids.

So I was mad for a long time and hurt because as soon as he broke up with me he got back with his ex who is not even cute and shes annoying. And I’m not just salty, its TRUE. She aint even cute!

But whatever. That hurt me a lot so I used to just sit in anger and cry and marinate in that pain. Until one day I was sitting up playing with my kids and out of nowhere I said, “God, I just want your best for me, if it’s not him, then thats okay.”

I couldnt believe I had said that. I had been praying and standing in faith that we would get back together. I was claiming it in Jesus’ name!

How deceived I was. I just wanted what I wanted, I couldnt imagine that anyone else would want me or that God had someone else for me.

But now I see the bigger picture. God wanted it that way. God hardened his heart against me because God has someone so much better for me. The man He intended for me to be with all along. And even though I have two kids, this man will STILL want me and love me and I wont have to settle.

And no, I dont have to date around and take whatever comes along. I will have the man that God had set aside for me and I wont have to do a thing to get him.

If you have no idea what Im talking about, look to your left and click the link that says RECEIVE YOUR SOULMATE. That’s my story that I put on my Blackplanet page and it explains why I dont date.

Its pretty wild, I KNOW! But watch and see, God has a supernatural blessing for me. And who knows, it could happen sooner than I think. ~wink