My phone rings at 10 pm, I smile when I look at the caller Id.
“Hey Tamara,” I greet her.
“What’s up girl?”
“Girl, you know me…I’m always writing. But I can take a break. What’s going on?”
“Girl..It’s the funniest thing. You haven’t said a word about Steve lately. How’s he doing?”
I take a moment before I reply. “Girl, I don’t know what’s going on with him. A couple of weeks ago I called him and he didn’t return my call for 3 days. You know I have my one day rule where if a man doesn’t return my call within 24 hours, I erase his number from my phone.”
“You crazy!” she laughs. “So what did he say?”
“He was sounding all tired and he said that he has a lot going on right now and he thinks we should take a step back.”
“Oh my gosh! So he broke up with you?”
“Yeah..I guess. I asked him what’s wrong but he said he didn’t want to talk about it. He’s so secretive, it’s hard to get him to open up.”
“How did the conversation end?”
“Well, I just told him that I understand. I mean, what else can I do? If a dude wants some space, I give it to him. No big deal.”
“Tee,” Tamara said. “It’s no big deal? Are you for real?”
“He wasn’t all that anyway,” I replied sadly “I didn’t really like him. He’s always too busy for me….”
“You okay?”
“Yeah girl. I’ve been single for far longer than I was with him. What was that? Six months of being with him. I can move past that easily. He’s just a guy. They come and go.”
“Alright girl. Well, we’ll talk tomorrow, my baby just woke up.”
“Aiight.”
When I hang up the phone my chest is hurting. The fact is, I was so used to men walking in and out of my life that it never bothered me..But now it does.
I don’t see how you can be so into someone one minute and then forget about her the next. This isn’t like him. I wonder what’s really going on.
It doesn’t matter. I’ll just continue doing my thing and I’ll forget about him soon enough.
Hopefully…