Pretty revealing day all around.

I guess I was pissed about fatherhood again today. Show me an all around wonderful father and I’ll give you a dollar. My baby daddy really tried me yesterday. I have the feeling he had “company” when I called him because he knows he dont talk to me like that on a regular basis, he sound like he was showing off.

But whatever. I can take it, at least he’s not as bad as he used to be. Or maybe I just dont care as much.

Just being here and talking to the people here in Miami is discouraging. Most everyone feels hopeless and wants to leave. Everyone points the finger at every other race as the cause of their problems and the funny thing is, there are no white people in Miami.

So we got this intense racial discord between the blacks and the Hispanics. Blacks consider the Hispanics to be crackers now.

“Them Cubans taking over everything!” all the blacks are screaming.

Man oh man. I came to Miami full of hope and excitement and a vision to uplift people. But who would want to listen to me? This city really needs it. No, what they really need is Jesus. Im going into intense prayer for the entire city of Miami. They are hurting and they dont even know why. They have a void that only God can fill.

God, more than money, I want to see these people be fulfilled in you. I want to be ompletely fulfilled in you. Move in this city like a might hurricane. I won’t give up in despair. You sent me here for a purpose. No matter what today looks like, Im going to focus on what you will have for me to do. Send me to that church home where you will have me to grow. Send me those relationships that you have ordained to help me serve the people. Use me Lord. Let me tell the world about you. I’m scared Lord, its a big task.

But nothing is bigger than you.