Praying For Friends

Val told me today that she prayed to meet good people in her new town.

I realized that I hadn’t done that.

So here goes…

God, I know that you have my journey all planned out for me and I trust you with my life. I spend so much time talking to you and telling you thank you for protection that I’d like to stop and thank you for the friends you will send into my life.

I love my old friends. Time has tested our love for each other time and time again. I thank you for them. For their understanding of my shortcomings and for their unconditional love. It seems like I pour so much of myself into new relationships, explaining to people that if they really want to be friends with me, all they have to do is communicate openly about any displeasure I may cause and I would be willing to change it so they would be happy.

You know I don’t hurt anyone on purpose and I live life consistently trying to be righteous, honest and fair. I’d love to meet like minded people who don’t gossip and are secure enough to be around me. You know I’m not conceited, well maybe a little bit. I think I’m the bomb and I want to meet people who are comfortable with themselves and love themselves enough not to be intimidated by my shine.

I don’t compete with my friends for anything so meeting a person with the spirit of competition won’t be a good match. You know I also love to shower my friends with words of adoration on a consistent basis so..please let the new friends be able to accept that and not think I’m trying to holla at them or something.

I guess I’m being protected. Well, I know I am since I’ve been in Houston for months and I have not met a single guy who has been interested in me. No one has even tried to have sex with me or take me out on a date! What an interesting concept. All the men do is look with wide eyes and they don’t even say anything.

I guess I have to say Thank you for keeping all of the fools away. I know it’s for my best interest and I have to tell myself that on these nights when I am alone. I’d rather be alone than experience drama but…I’d really like to experience what I thought I had with JB. A true friendship laced with love. I thank you for the patient, loving friend you will send into my life who will never walk away from me.

I realized today that I still have a strong desire to be friends with my Baby Daddy. Then I realized that maybe I was his first love and I hurt him more times than once. Maybe he seems to hate me because he is still hurting over me.

If that’s the case then I ask for forgiveness and I hope that you will put it on his heart to forgive me. I’d like to show him love and appreciation for being such a good Daddy to my boys but I know that he won’t receive that right now.

You know that I’m steadily searching for my place in this world and so many of my friends are too. Bless Kim to be patient and receive all that you have for her. I thank you for giving her a heart to want MORE and for being my friend all this time. Please give her a real direction on what she should do. She’s frustrated right now and she’s a bit spoiled so you know how she is acting up right now. Give her peace that you are in control. Give her the kind of peace that you gave me throughout all of this craziness. And most importantly, use me to help her calm down and get her bearings.

Tamara’s at home with her new baby now and she says he’s a good baby. She has a house full of people visiting and trying to make their way. Give her the patience to handle all of the changes and enough love to bless everyone with her spirit.

I miss Anna. I miss being a part of her daily life. She’s getting married in about 2 months and I’d really like to go back to Miami to be a part of this long awaited celebration.

I got a call from Shanna and Ellea. They blessed me and told me they loved me and were proud of me. It made me cry because I really needed to hear that. The last time someone told me they loved me, they called and said they changed their mind after a few weeks.

There’s a girl on my job who has a good spirit. I kinda made her feel uncomfortable the other day when I told her that she had really huge breasts. Well..she does! I can’t help but look at them whenever she talks to me. Anyway…forgive me for that. She’s in need of a financial blessing and stable help with her son. She has such a desire to excel at work and our publisher challenges her to be better just like she challenges me. What blesses me about her is that through all of the challenges, she recognizes that she is becoming better at what she does. Bless her for teaching me that all challenges refine you.

I know you’re smiling down at Kenya in New York. She’s trying her best to keep her head up despite the set backs. Send her a supernatural blessing that she can’t even imagine. Send her just what she needs to keep her vision alive.

Don’t forget Michael who is back in Detroit right now. He is so much like me its scary. Give him direction and stability so that he can prepare for the thing he wants most; a beautiful wife and a family.

Once you’re done showering everyone with blessings could you please come back to me and grant one more request?

I’d really like a hug from you.

I trust you to provide that soon.

In Jesus name.