My life is a miracle.
But I’m still getting the hang of it.
Today I realized that this whole grad school thing is pushing me wayyy out of my comfort zone. I haven’t had a good night’s rest since I started. I’ve been up all night, tired but restless thinking about everything that I’m learning and wondering if I’m going to do okay.
And…I’ve been so used to spending all of my time alone for so many months and now…I have to interact everyday with people.
They want to talk. They want to share and get to know me. It’s freaking me out. I know I shouldn’t be like that but it’s so uncomfortable for me. I have group projects where I have to meet with people and work together as a team. As a writer, I’m used to working with others, it’s just we do all of our coordinating through email, in brief spurts.
I love people, I really do, I’m just so introverted that I can only take so much social interaction before I begin to feel drained.
I’m putting way too much pressure on myself lately.
I need to relax.
I really do.
I have to learn to relax.
I have to practice appreciating myself more and learn to relax and allow more.
Breathe.
Breathe.
You can do this.
Yes, you can.