Smoking out sure does make me lazy. I can’t drive. I can’t write. I can’t focus. So I don’t do it anymore.
Well, I try not to. I miss the social comraderie of hanging with smokers but don’t you get the feeling that you can not sit together in a room with them and NOT smoke? Why is it that when you hang with smokers that’s the MAIN activity? Like, you can’t even enjoy each other’s company unless you’re getting high.
Another reason I gave away the sack that Steve left me when he was down here is because…I have too much work to do and honestly, I don’t think the people that I admire smoke out like that. When I think about the people I know who are consistent smokers, none of them are trying to go where I’m going and…I have to watch which habits I imitate and what the results are. I guess if I just had a job that I go to everyday and came home to chill until I fell asleep I’d smoke out, but if you’re trying to make dollars without being handed a paycheck and punching a clock, you have to have a clear mind to do that.
I’m sure I’ll smoke again someday but..not tonight man. I have too much to do.