I love that show called My First House. They have potential buyers shopping for their first home.
I love to watch how the couples interact and whose opinion is more valuable and who they are influenced by. One couple HAD to invite his parents for their approval or they wouldn’t buy the house. Another couple were at odds about what they wanted, he wanted a home in the suburbs and she wanted one in the city. I didn’t know how they were gonna work that out but they did.
I often think back to the first time I slept in my old house with my boys. They were so happy! So was I.
Although I love where I am living because it’s such a quiet neighborhood and there’s a great park nearby I still do fantasize about my next home.
I don’t ever want to go back to living in an apartment so I think I’ll choose a house this time. It’s not too big, maybe about 1400 square feet but it has 3 bedrooms and 2 1/2 bathrooms and a kitchen with big windows and an island that I’ll never use since I don’t cook
I see a really interesting entrance. Nice warm colors and artwork that really catches your eye. It could be a 2 story house, my sons would like that. Wood floors on some of the house. Carpet on the rest, like in the bedrooms. Wall to wall closets because when I have walk-ins, I just throw all the junk on the floor. I’d love to have a front porch where I can sit and write. I’d love a back porch too that’s big enough for a couple of patio loungers so me and my kids and friends can go out there and hang out.
A nice sized backyard, not too big. I’m gonna have to pay someone to maintain it and I don’t want to spend too much. I can’t wait to be able to say to my sons, “Get your behind outside!” and watch them from the window or the back porch. They can have their friends over anytime they want. They can sleepovers, they can have parties. I love kids and I can’t wait to start an academy for kids and teach them about how to have a successful mindset from an early age.
~sigh~
I feel so relaxed today. I’m looking forward to going and making this money at Denny’s tonight. I love doing this shit. It’s tiring but it’s satisfying. I treat people well, they tip me for my service. Sounds like a good match to me. I love taking care of people.
Speaking of taking care of people I had to let that deal with Donovan go. I know you’re like, “Damn this girl is crazy!” Yeah it may seem that way but I don’t like to be in a situation where I don’t feel good about what I’m doing.
You can call it jealousy, emotions, imaturity or whatever, but the truth is, I felt like I was doing something wrong. I’ve slept with a married man before and I’ve stolen some lipgloss before but this felt way more wrong that those times.
One thing I figured out from all of the planning and research I did was- I can do this. I have studied so many paths to success that I can probably write a book about what I’ve learned. Hmm…Maybe I’ll put that on my “to write” list. I know what a successful person thinks like. I know what their actions are.
I also learned that Donovan is even more wonderful than I ever expected. He’s emotional and a bit nerdy but he’s such a good hearted person. Being that close to him was very hard on me, we actually had the same visions for our lives. That’s another reason why I’m glad we’re not working together anymore.
My sister said, “You can’t get mad at him for marrying someone else.”
I think that was in the middle of it too. I’m like, “Look how much I could have added to your life but you couldn’t even recognize it.”
Not like I ever thought it could happen anyway…
I just loved what I was doing and I would LOVE to be able to do that again for the lucky man who decides he wants to be on my team.
Ehhh…
I am so glad that I have my sons.