I don’t get it.
Lately I’ve let go of the whole “I need you to be what I want you to be” attitude and I don’t get angry at anyone for not being what I wish they would be in my life so, I don’t understand why this man, the Older Man, keeps showing up whenever I need him.
It’s so hard for me to ask for help. I hate it. I feel less than. I feel really low. But he always helps and doesn’t make me feel badly.
I’ve been my real self. I’ve been the bratty Tee, the overwhelming Tee, the confused Tee, the scared Tee, the sweet Tea and even the angry Tee but none of that seems to phase him. I keep waiting for him to show annoyance or frustration. He must be a really good actor.
I’m an expert at sabotaging relationships- at least I thought I was.
Maybe I’m losing my powers somehow.
It’s truly scaring me.