Just Because I Don’t Want Your Love…doesn’t mean I don’t love myself. It really just means that I am uninterested in being attached to anyone right now.
Yes, my choice is rooted in fear but so what..its still MY CHOICE. I choose it willingly and joyfully. I am afraid to allow someone to get close to me.
I don’t hate myself, in fact, I haven’t met anyone on this website that I think would be a perfect match for me creative wise, physically…spiritually… But then again..I’m on here just to meet cool as women. I dont expect to meet anyone long term and I’m not interested in that.
I love myself. I don’t know anyone who is as cool and as sweet and as loyal as me. And damn I’m hot… For real…I see myself… I have issues that I ENJOY writing and talking about but for the mos part I have to bring them to the forefront in conversation because upon meeting me you wouldn’t know.
I love myself…and I’m tired of hearing otherwise simply because I am unwilling to allow someone into my life on a romantic level. How about…I don’t give a fuck about the arguments and bullshit I watch my friends go through… How about…the reward doesn’t seem to meet the drama in my opinion…
AM I crying over how I want a girl so badly or how I want a man? Nope…The most you’ll hear me say is, “I wanna fuck.” And I can go get some of that easily…guys and girls are easy.
Anyway…today I’m trying to find a job in the counseling field…. it’s my last year of grad school and internship is coming up and I’d like to have a real JOB while I do my internship. So…who knows… I still have to move again soon and this time without a car..back to North Miami so I can be close to my school.
Miracles can happen but..even if they don’t… I know I’ll be alright.