My life is a miracle.
I have been reading everything I can about spiritual development because it seems like that’s where I am right now. I didn’t want to be, it just happened and I feel myself becoming more whole and happy and more satisfied than I’ve ever been which is so interesting to me because my life circumstances have not changed much. The only change that has taken place has been my perception of who I am and what’s important to me.
I’m actually studying a philosophy called Taoism right now, I’m trying to see how it’s principles can add to my life in a positive way. Good luck? Bad Luck? Who knows? is an example of a Taoist principle.
I also came across this Chinese healing technique called Ho’oponono. I can’t even remember where I was first introduced to it so I was not even sure what I was supposed to get out of it but anyway I decided to try it out tonight.
It’s a series of phrases like:
I forgive you.
I love.
Thank you.
I’m sorry.
Sorry, I can’t even find the information that I first saw this on. I’m so sorry but DAYUMMM– I tried it and WOW, I feel like I drank a can of Coca Cola! My spirit is on fire!
So..let me explain. From what I remember from the article I read about this, if you sit down and repeat these phrases you can heal yourself and those around you.
~scratches head~
Ok. I don’t really know about all of that but when I sat down to really meditate on the meaning of these statements and apply them to where I am right now…something happened.
I closed my eyes and spoke into my heart (The Divine Within), “I forgive you.”
Then all of these thoughts came rushing in. Memories of me being too hard on myself, times when I allowed others to treat me harshly and didn’t stand up for myself. Feelings about decisions I have made in my past that affected others in a negative way. It’s okay. It’s okay. I forgive you.
Then I said, “I love you.”
Yes, you who is sitting right here. I love you, Tee. I love you, Tee. Yes, you who is sitting right here. You who never believed you were worthy of love. You with the crooked teeth, the big feet, the wounded heart. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Then I said, “Thank you.”
Thank you, Tee. Thank you for allowing yourself this time to heal. Thank you for seeking a better place spiritually. Thank you for sharing your heart with your friends and family. Thank you for being you. Thank you, Tee. Thank you, Tee.
Then I said, “I’m sorry.”
I’m so sorry, Tee. I’m sorry for beating you up all these years. I’m sorry for not recognizing the shining star you are. I’m sorry for allowing others’ opinions to be more important than the truth. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
As I repeated each statement silently, my body began to experience a warm buzz. I felt energy flow from my toes to my head and then back down again. The energy pulsated like a vibrant neon sign, begging for more juice.
My vibrations are all the way high right now. I feel like I’m high, but I haven’t smoked anything. All I feel is love. I feel lifted. I feel like maybe I’m on another planet or something. I feel free.
I feel…peace.
I have never, ever sat down and just…forgave myself and showered myself with appreciation.
I’m going to make this a daily practice.
I love you, Tee. I mean it.
I’m sorry. I love you.
I love you.