In less than 15 minutes Steve and I were parking my car and then standing outside of the elevators waiting to go up to his condo.
During the entire ride from the Strip Club both Steve and I were silent, each lost in our own thoughts. I wondered if tonight was the night that Steve and I would go from friends to lovers. In the past I made early sexual strides with men, sometimes to test them sometimes to satisfy my own perverted desires.
I’m headed to his house. I know what goes down when you go to a man’s house on the late night. I’m not opposed to the idea either, but what’s going to happen tomorrow? I want to continue to be friends with him.
How did he really feel about me after I took him to get a lap dance? I can’t seem to meet a man who doesn’t think I’m trashy because I like that kind of thing. But yeah..I do. The thought of my man being seduced by another women arouses me. I don’t know why but it does.
Man…I’m not even sure if we should be doing this. This could potentially end our entire relationship because once the condom is discarded, my interest goes in the trash with it.I blinked twice as I heard a familiar voice in my ear. I looked in the back seat. No one. Huh? Wait..who is that?I gasp as I see a tiny figure sitting gingerly on my left shoulder. Oh shit! I’m going crazy!”Tamara?” I murmur.”Yeah girl,” the tiny pixie-like figure replies in a tone that almost sounds like a song. “I know what you’re about to do. But Tee, I want you to remember that when you have secks and it’s with someone you love, it’s so much better than random secks.”I glance over at Steve, who smiles while the elevator continues to ascend to his 10th floor apartment.All of a sudden I feel a prick on my right cheek. I look over at my right shoulder and it’s Anna in the same seated position, smoking a blunt. I laugh.”Turn him out,” she says frankly and takes a long puff. ” Show him how Miami rides out. Remember what I taught you.””Ohh Tee,” Tamara sings. “Love is beautiful. Don’t you want love instead of secks?”Anna interjects, “Bitch please! Show him what you workin wit’! Handle that!”I shake off those pixies as the elevator stops.
“Tee.” Steve’s voice surprises me as he gently guides me off the elevator. “Daydreaming again?” he asks and grins. “What’s your fantasy tonight?” I giggle nervously.He smiles and unlocks the front door to his apartment. It’s pitch black as he closes the door behind us and then I hear him clap twice and the lights come on.
“You have THE CLAPPER?!!” I giggle. “You are a nerd!”
“Yeah. It’s a life saver.”
I stretch my eyes wide and walk through his home. He takes his time showing me each room. It’s a 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom condo on the 10th floor of a waterfront property. The furniture is sparse but placed with precision throughout the apartment. The place is immaculate and kind of sterile.
“It doesn’t look like anyone lives here,” I tell him as we step out onto the balcony.
“Well, no one does right now. I lease it for a few months at a time or I stay here when I’m in Miami.”
He guides me to the tan colored leather sofa and he sits beside me. We’re both sitting there like teenage virgins home alone for the first time.
After a minute of uncomfortable silence, he rises and walks over to a tall mahogany chest in the foyer. He opens a drawer, retrieves something and walks toward me with a smile.
“Wanna play cards?” he asks and drops the deck on the coffee table.Cards?Aww…He’s scared. I laugh to myself. Let me loosen him up a bit.”No thanks Steve, but I would like to play a game.””What game is that?” he asks, his voice lower than usual. He’s still standing in front of me as I curl up on the couch, removing my sandals and giving him the ‘come hither’ look.”Well,” I reply softly. “You be the cop and I’m in the back seat of your squad car. You just caught me driving under the influence.”He stares down at me with a thoughtful expression.”Come here…” I tell him firmly. He submits to my command and I reach out to pull him on top of me so that we are face to face.”You’re beautiful…” he says.”So are you.”I move my head to the right and take a whiff of his cologne. “You smell good,” I tell him. I plant a soft kiss on his neck and I feel his body stiffen.”Tell me you like that,” I say.”I like it.””What about this?” I ask as I kiss him again, this time more firmly sucking on his neck.He moves away from me quickly and I sit up straight.”What happened?” I ask.”Nothin…Let’s play cards,” he says and pulls the coffee table closer.I’m confused. “I don’t want to play cards. I want you to come here right now.”He freezes and then turns to me.”You can’t have everything you want, you know.” he says.”According to the Law of Attraction, yes I can,” I tease him.”Tee, Let’s just chill. I mean, I want to spend time with you.””We spent time together all night, I want to do something different,” I say, raising my voice an octave.”Well, let’s watch a movie then,” he says and grabs the remote.I give him the dirtiest look I can muster. A look that usually grabs men by the balls and forces them to do my bidding.”Wait…”I stammer. “Steve…Are you gay?””What?!” he asks and turns to look at me. “Don’t play me like that.””What you mean? You DID used to live in Atlanta..I know how they get down. Did you meet a dude named Dell?””Slow that shit down,” he says and changes the channel.”Come here,” I whine and rub him on his back. “I just want to be close to you.””We are close,” he says firmly. “Chill out.”I suck my teeth and roll my eyes. “Nigga you gay,” I say and stand to pull on my sandals.
In one swift motion he grabs me and pins me on the couch. His face is inches away from mine and his grip is tightening as his brow wrinkles.”What?!” he hisses. “You want me to pull off your clothes and fuck you like the rest of them bitch ass niggas? You want me to pull up your dress and fuck you like you’re a slut?!”His face is tight and his voice is so low. I would have been scared except…”You’re turning me on,” I tell him playfully.He shakes his head and releases me. “I knew that shit would. Man…”He places his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his thighs.”Tee,” he says softly, his voice but a murmur. “You don’t have to do this everytime. You don’t have to be like that. Don’t you know who you are?””I do know who I am. I like secks. I like you. Let’s have secks.”He turns to look at me. “Tee. I could have secks with you right now, but afterwards I’d think you were easy and gave it up to any man who crossed your path. I wouldn’t respect you. I wouldn’t keep you. You can’t do this. You can’t keep doing this. You’re better than this.”My throat tightens. I can’t even find the words to respond.
“Let me go then,” I say, fighting the urge to cry.”No. I invited you here because I want to spend time with you. I want to hold you. I…I care about you.” His voice is strong, yet tender. It’s as though he’s pleading with me.
“Man,” I say playing the hard role. “Lemme go outside and smoke and I’ll think about it. I grab my purse to reach for a Black and he takes it from me.”What? Are you my Daddy now?” I ask with a frown and stand up.”I’m not your Daddy, but I am your man and you’re gonna quit that smokin shit and act like the lady that you are,” he says firmly.”Nigga please!”He stands in front of me. The heat from his body caressing me, causing me to go weak.”Call me a nigga again and see what happens…I’m not a nigga. I’m a man. Remember that.” Damn..He’s so…so…damn…..I roll my eyes at him and place both hands on my hips.”I’m sleeping on the couch,” I announce and sit back down.He walks away, into the kitchen. I hear him fumbling with the cabinets. I then hear clinking noises.”What are you doing?” I call out.”Don’t worry about it. Go in the room,” he calls back.”I ain’t goin in the room, I’m sleepin out here,” I say defiantly.I hear his footsteps approach and my heart beats faster. He stands in front of me, pulls me to my feet and turns me around so that my back is pressed against his stomache. He leans down, placing his mouth near my ear.”Get yo ass in the room, Tee. Don’t make me say it again.”I blink twice, my body reacting to his deep, sexy voice.I walk numbly into his bedroom and sit down on the bed. He enters the room shortly after with two wine glasses. He places them on a tray that is sitting on his nighstand and then goes over to his closet and returns with a t-shirt and a pair of shorts.”You can wear this if you want babe,” he says.I smile at him, take the clothes and head to the bathroom to change. When I get back he’s wearing a wife beater and a pair of basketball shorts. He has soft music playing and two candles lit on his nightstand.”Here you go,” he says and hands me a glass. I sniff the dark wine and take a sip before sitting on the bed next to him. He pulls me closer and hugs me tightly, almost spilling my drink.”You’re a brat,” he says and bites my ear. “But you know that already. What am I going to do with you?””Keep doing what you’re doing,” I say and lean back against him. We’re both silent for a while and I replay the night’s events in my mind. Wait a minute…What did he say earlier?Did he say he’s my…MAN???