Wanna know what?
I don’t feel as angry as I used to.
Remember how I was all bent out of shape about how men treated me in the past and how hurt I was over how dumb they can be? I don’t feel the actual pain anymore.
When I think about my stepfather and all the things he should have done and all the ways he hurrt me by not being who I needed him to be, I am not sad anymore.
Today I thought of him and I smiled. Yesterday was the same thing. I am not angry at my Baby Daddy either. He is who he is and nothing he has done has actually HURT me. I used to be so mad because he didn’t treat me the way I wanted him to treat me but that’s simply stupid on my part. I created my own misery by my expectations.
If someone doesn’t treat you the way you want to be treated, then they weren’t meant to. You can’t be upset about it. Wow. How dumb is that?
I feel FREE.
Here’s another video I made. I visited 22 businesses yesterday for my project and I chose Kanye West’s song, “Through The Wire” and it fit so perfectly to me because I feel like although I am up against the wall and under pressure to make this work, I’m still pushing because this is a matter of life and death. I HAVE to succeed so that others will know they can succeed too.