My life is a miracle.
And I’m not going to even THINK about that dream I had last night because if I do, I’m basically begging God to kill me. I don’t want to manifest that. I have too many other people to bless during my lifetime.
Whew!
I almost let those thoughts get to me but it didn’t work. I’m getting better at this mind control thing everyday. Now, when I have negative thoughts, it actually takes EFFORT for my emotions to connect with them. I have to really focus on the negative thought before I start to feel sad about it.
It’s as though all that crap is foreign to my brain and I have to stand on my tippy toes to reach the thought and bring it down to where I am. That’s way too much effort just to feel the stinging relief of self pity.
Look, it’s easy to get sucked into this pity party during the holidays. You may be away from your family, you may be attempting to start a new career or you may be exhausted from hoping for someone special to share the holidays with. I know what it’s like, I really do feel you.
When there’s no one around to give you a hug and remind you how great you are, those little nagging thoughts come in and try to convince you that you’re not so great after all.
You wanna know what I did that changed my mood from slightly depressed to appreciative in less than one minute?
It’s so simple but it’s so difficult to do if you’re not ready.
Here it is:
I chose not to feel sad like that.
I thought to myself, “I don’t wanna feel like that anymore.”
Think about it. Where’s the fun in being depressed?
I know it’s easy to marinate in that sorrow and the whole woe is me mentality. You may elicit a hug from that. You may elicit attention, but mostly you’re really turning people off from wanting to be around you. You’re sending out “don’t come near me” vibrations and when you’re sending those out, you’re also blocking your blessings because the people that God would send to bless you are also being pushed away.
Life is really about experiencing as much joy as you can. But we water down the joy we have because we aren’t fully living in the moment, we’re always on guard with the “what if’s”.
What if we changed our “what ifs?”
What if…when we woke up, we were rested and satisfed and then realized that there’s actually two more hours before we have to get up?
How great does that feel?
What if…when we heard the laughter and commotion in the breakroom at work, instead of wondering if they were gossipping about us, we’d find that they were planning a party for us instead?
What if…every light was green on the way to work and you find out that the cutie you had been admiring is admiring you too?
What if…you got called into your boss’s office to hear that you just received a promotion and a raise?
What if…you go out looking for those new boots and find them half priced?
What if everything you dreamt of happened?
Why not?
Just like we have engrained in our psyche that we should expect the worst, we can reprogram ourselves to expect the best.
You know, I’m glad that I got depressed for the holidays.
I’m grateful that this sadness came along. If I didn’t get this test of my emotions, I wouldn’t know that I can overcome it this easily.
Blah on death. Blah on saying goodbye. Blah on feeling like I’m inadequate.
I’m more than a conqueror. I am worthy of love and all of God’s wonderful blessings.
My children need me.
My friends need me.
I need me.
Your life satisfaction level is really all about your choices.
STOP!
Think about the way you are feeling right now.
Does that feel good?
No?
Then stop thinking about those things.
Think about something else.
I’lll never forget the sound of my son’s voice when he said, “Look Mommy, it’s a butterfly.”
He gave me the butterfly as a gift. I carry it with me wherever I go as a reminder that whatever I focus on, I receive.
I want a miraculous life so I’m going to focus on the GOOD THINGS.
Thanks God for answering my prayer. I have so many reasons to live.