Owwww…

I hurt all over. Im sick. My body aches. My mouth is hot and nasty. My kids are starting to irritate me with their whining. Im usually very patient with them.

Can I say something that I am so afraid to admit? Please dont be mad at me, God, but I dont like my job.

I know Im supposed to be grateful that Im making good money and its the kind of job that most people settle into and stay for years but I am bored out of my mind.

Its one of those jobs where you perform tasks. Thats all you do. Someone asks you to do soemthing and you do it. No thinking involved. No creativity. No watching your idea take form and flourish. Am i horrible? I know God must be so mad at me for being like this.

I fight to stay awake at my job and my tasks are not challenging and take about two seconds to perform. And even when things progress its still gonna be the same. Fill out forms, read boring papers- SMILE.

I am so sorry I feel this way. The guilt is eating me alive. I dont want to be ungrateful I just want to be happy to go to work and right now I dread going over there because there’s nothing fulfilling to do.

Dont be mad at me. Im still going to work with the spirit of excellence and try to stay awake all day. Im sorry.