I cut my sugarpops hair today. My younger son Solomon is now a big boy with a low cut. Ofcourse I cried as his big afro hit the floor but I cant braid it and it was difficult finding people to braid it for me so most of the time he looked disheveled yet cute. Im happy with his cut but he doesnt look like my little baby anymore. ~awww~

Maybe he’ll start talking soon. He’s 19 months and he only says “MAAA!” Im having him set up for speech therapy classes but im not worried. His big brother and I talk so much he probably feels like he doesnt have anything to add. I’m sure he’ll be fine.

IN OTHER NEWS

It’s amazing how, when youre in Christ, so many people judge you and nit pick at how you live. They expect for you to be this perfect person the minute you profess to live for God. Especially those who arent living for Christ. They use your inadequacies as their excuse not to serve God. They figure if you cant get it right 100% of the time, then how can they do it and they dont want to pretend or play with God.

Yeah, I live for Christ. I hope my life brings honor to Him, but I know that sometimes I slip up. I know that sometimes my heart is not as pure as His. A life in Christ is a process, not a magic door that you step through.

When you start living for Christ you will see the evidence of His presence inyour life but its not going to happen immediately in every area. It took 21 years for me to get all screwed up, It;s not gonna take 2 minutes for everything to get all better.

I realized that God is working in me this weekend when I faced a seemingly scary situation. I went online to check my financial aid status because it seemed that some money had been deposited into my checking account from UF and I had no idea why it was there. I knew I had a hold on my school account because of unpaid parking tickets so I didnt expect to be able to see anything. But when I logged in, my holds were cleared.

I froze, wondering what had happened. I hadnt checked my grades from my last semester because of the hold on my account, so i looked at my transcript, you dont even want to hear what my GPA was. But the most frightening thing I saw was that I got a D+ in my computer class.

Understand, this class was the big obstacle I faced during my last semester. I was taking it for a math credit because every other math class I took I couldnt pass and this was my last hope during my last semester which was a lot of pressure. The entire semester I struggled in this class. I prayed so hard and practiced but it still looked as though I was going to fail. Just two weeks before the end of the semester, just before I took my last test, I went to the head instructor, instead of the TA and asked if she thought I would pass with my scores. She said No. But she took mercy on me and gave me extra credit and on the LAST day of classes I went to see her and she looked at my grades and gave me a hug and told me that I had done it. She congralulated me and told me good luck. I screamed all the way down the hallway.

See, I needed to pass that class with a C in order to graduate. All of my other classes were journalism classes and I did well in them so I didnt have to worry. So, I went and walked in my graduation ceremony two days later and celebrated with my friends and family.

So, when I saw the D+ I was shocked. I wondered if this was the reason I had financial aid in my account. Did UF still consider me to be a student? I checked my degree status and it said: No degree received at UF. I stared at the screen blankly.

My worst nightmare.

But you know what? I didnt cry. I didnt shake, I didnt fall out like Im so used to doing. I just said to myself, I did everything that I could do last semester. I did my best.

Today I went to talk to the instructor and she changed my grade, saying that I had come up short by just a few points on the last exam and she gave me some more extra credit to do to get those points. I was really cool about it. I cant believe that.

God must have done a work in me because Im so emotional I would have flipped out but I didnt. I kept my cool. And Im fine. It turns out that extra financial aid was really my award money for that writing competition I had won. I didnt expect it to come into my account. I was waiting for a check in the mail. So, it turned out to be my money after all. Yay!

This is exactly what we have to do when faced with any kind of trial or upsetting news. It’s not our battle to fight. God is in total control. Your whining or crying won’t make anything better, though it may make you feel better for a moment. Just chill and let God do His thing. Save yourself some tears.

I’m going to save mine for the happy days.

Love,

Tee