I have finally realized the truth about ppl. And it almost drove me to the edge. I quit my job last Friday, for two hours.

But let me back up. Ive been working at my office for about a month now. And since day one there has been so much tension and rudeness directed toward me that I have dreaded going there everyday. Im not pulling the race card just yet but I am the only black person who works there full time.

Ive been reported for humming on the job. Yes I said HUMMING! child please! People have rolled their eyes at me and made rude comments and not invited me to office functions. The one person who introduced herself to me as a sister in Christ was the main one who was trying to encourage me to leave and get my boss to fire me. I didnt even know it. She would sit in my ear all day and plant seeds of negativity about my happiness, the job and my boss Neale, all the while pretending that she had my best interests at heart. She complained about him all day, saying that he was incompetent and that no one respected him and she had to speak the truth to him. She would say that she recognized talents in me that were not going to be nurtured at this job and that Neale made a poor decison when he hired me.

I began to feel sad for him and even worse for myself because let her tell it, everyone resented me for being there because I wasnt hired under normal circumstances. I began to feel like a loser. I took all this into my heart because I trusted her because she said she was a Christian. I realize now that the title does not certify, the condition of the heart does.

And after I spoke with my Pastor about it, he reminded me that with favor comes persecution. Ofcourse no one there understands how I got that job. It was FAVOR. Ofcourse they want to try to run me away. I dont look like them, Im not old like them and I’m not into kissing anyone’s behind.

I’m still hurting though. this has been one horrible experience. I havent even mentioned what this one lady said and did to me, but you know what, its all good. im not gonna let this make me revert back to the old days when i blamed an entire race for what a few had done. I wont go back there. This is a test. And Im gonna pass!

And guess what, until God moves me out of that place, I dont care what anyone thinks of me- I AINT GOING NO WHERE!

~rolls eyes~