On A Friday Night
Ain’t This Some Sh**!
Why am I on yahoo music trying to listen to some music which I rarely do and all that is playing is that sucky sucky R&B? Aughh!
Who the hell likes R&B anyway? It’s all about crying and whining over some painful romantic situation or begging someone to treat you better. DAMMIT! I get enough of that in my own life I don’t wanna hear that in my leisure time.
That’s honestly why I never particularly liked Mary J. Blige. I mean, I liked one or two of her old songs but damn…she was always ‘Going Down’ over some man and damn that’s depressing that we celebrate the pain in relationships.
Now I understand that these songs capture the essence of the reality of relationships but I believe that listening to this crap makes us feel that all of this pain is SUPPOSED to be a part of relationships.
Break up to make up
He’s mine, you may done had him once but I have him all the time
I keep on fallin in and out of love, with you
So, you’re home alone on a Friday night and you’re listening to this crap and trying not to think about the fact that you are home alone and would rather be doing anything than chatting with this lonely other person on the internet but hey…it’s your only option so you have to entertain this crap, that or either go buy a fifth of Henn and dance to Kanye in your underwear.
~checking bank account~
Can’t afford the Henn so I’ll probably end up analyzing my life again. Oh no, not that! So I have to make some adjustments. I’m in this beautiful city and I don’t do anything but sit my behind in the house.
I miss my kids.
When they are away for the weekend I am happy for about two hours and then I realize that they are the reason I get out of bed at all.
So…what to do tonight? It’s 9:20.
I could get dressed and go out. Ofcourse there’s a spot to go to where I can relax a bit and people watch. But then I’d probably want a drink and if I’m driving then…that’s not a good idea. So, who can I call?
Damn…my anti social ass done pushed everyone away and even if people are getting together tonight they aren’t gonna invite ME cuz they know I don’t like social gatherings. Damn my moodiness!
Hmm..
What’s a chick to do?
Oh no…Troop is playing. All I Do Is Think Of You
I really don’t have anyone to think of though so this song is pointless. Wow. How is it that I have absolutely no one to associate these sad songs with? No one? Maybe I can conjure up an old ghost of a boyfriend?
~straining~
Oooh! Almost popped a blood vessel!
I remember when I first gave my life to the Lord. I used to take the songs to popular love songs and sing them to God.
Hey I’m in love with you
I think the world of you
So won’t you please be mine!
All I do is think of you
Day and Night
I can’t get you off my mind
Think about you ALL THE TIME
ALL THE TIME!!!
Yeah you an definately sing that to the Lord. Just not R. Kelly or someone like that. And that’s how I used to judge which songs were appropriate for me to listen to. If I can’t sing the lyrics to the Lord then it’s not right.
I miss my kids.
Funny how when they are here they get on my nerves always fighting and crying and bothering each other. But when they fall asleep…OOh. Sometimes I will go into their rooms and climb into bed with them for a few minutes each just to snuggle and feel the warmth of their bodies. Heavenly angels…and then they wake up in the morning and run to my room singing, “It’s Wake up time! Goodmorning!”
After that it’s all downhill.
He kicked me in my penis!
He poured his juice on my sandwhich!
He called me a liar!
He keeps copying me!
He won’t let me talk!
MAMA!
MAMA!
MAMA!
Sometimes I go hide under the covers and they have to find me because I can’t take hearing them whine another minute!
~shakes head~
My boys… Couldn’t function without them.
I wonder what young, hot, single women are doing tonight? Probably out being fabulous and being romantically wined and dined by eligible bachelors.
I wonder what married couples are doing tonight? Probably ordering chinese and watching a movie together snuggled up on the couch laughing and sipping wine as they feel each other up beneath the covers.
Pretty soon I’m sure one of my lonely friends will call me and we’ll talk about absolutely nothing but it will fill the night until we fall asleep.
Thank God for the internet though….
Let me get back to my writing for tonight…. I wonder if life ever gets better than this.