I’m really enjoying my virtual relationship with Steve.
Every morning he manages to send me an email to say Hi and ask how I’m doing. He’s laid back in his approach and hasn’t once asked me for my phone number again.
I like that. He listens.
I would like to talk to him, but I’m afraid. He seems to respect me and admire my writing and I don’t want to ruin that by allowing him to get close to me and find out that I’m really a..What’s the word? A Nut.
Last night he surprised me with his email message.
“I have a surprise for you,” he wrote. “I downloaded yahoo messenger to my phone so we can chat.”
Wow. But he was so against it in the beginning. I wonder what changed his mind.
“Why did you change your mind?” I asked him once we were connected.
“You’re acting all scared about talking to me so I figured that if I could reach you this way at any time, it’s better than nothing.”
Wow.
So I told him about grad school and how nervous I was. He “LOL’d” and reminded me that grad school is nothing like undergrad and the professors want you to succeed so that they can keep getting paid from your tuition. He also said that if I review everything that we discussed in class for at least an hour after we discussed it and made my own notes about what the lesson taught me, I’d remember most of what I learned instead of trying to review my notes before an exam or paper is due.
“I’m coming to Miami next week,” he wrote to me.
“Why?” I wrote back.
“Cuz I want to.”
“Which day?” I asked.
“Why you askin’ you don’t want to see me do you?”
“I like chatting with you.”
“Yeah. I thought so.”
“We only met two weeks ago.”
“I know. Whats the time limit before you can start having fun?”
“I don’t know.”
“What are you afraid of?”
“I just want to be friends. We don’t have to hang out like that. I’m a loner, really.”
“Ok.”
“Are you still coming?”
“Maybe.”
This really scares me. I had to talk to my friend Anna about it. When I recounted our conversation she sighed and said, “Just do you, Tee. It’s up to you.”
I know me and I know if I see him and we have a good time, I’m going to have secks with him then I won’t be able to like him after that. I’ll lost all respect. If I keep him at a distance I can learn from him, enjoy his personality and you know…he won’t be a one night stand.
No more one night stands!