Time To Start Over

My heart hurts.

A professional book reviewer is now reviewing my book and will post the review on his website for all to read. ~gulp~

I know I wrote it for people to buy but not really for people to critique. I just figured it might help someone to understand that its okay to be who they are. I wrote it to help people.

I just wanted to help. I am nervous as hell.

Today I’m moving forward. I heard about something called a Book Trailor. It’s like a movie trailor for books. So I watched a few and now I’m working on making my own. I wrote out the script and now I am learning a whole new movie maker program so that this video will stand out from the rest.

Thank goodness I’ve been making vids since 2007 so I have a good idea what goes where but I still have to figure out how to use this program well.

Guess what else died today? My phone. Just stopped working out of the blue. I don’t have money to replace it so I’m on yahoo trying to see if someone can contact someone to send me a new one.

Boy. Losses all around.

This made me think of my tooth that I lost in December. It was my last baby tooth that had never come out. It just fell out one night. Tamara and I took it as an omen that something was about to happen.

I guess it was. Everything changed.

The Tower card I got in the tarot reading was right. Everything I thought was true and right for me, actually wasn’t.

I’m still feeling positive about my future although there is NO EVIDENCE that much has changed. I’m just sowing seeds hoping for a quick harvest. I updated my vision board today. I found pictures of a perfect smile, a 5 bedroom house, a lobster and a girl getting her makeup done. Add those pics to the ones I already have: sushi, all the 4 food groups, tropical vacation, a Porsche speedster, A Benz coupe, a steak, a sign that says Be Your Own Boss, America’s Next Top Model clipping and a lady holding a microphone.

I wonder if this will work for me. I wonder what there is for me to do that I am not already doing. I’m getting a haircut tomorrow. I have been growing my afro for over a year and it looks so messy now. Time to start over.

Literally.