This Cute Chick

I met a girl last night…while I was on South Beach. She was so beautiful to me.

I met a girl last week…while standing on my feet. Serving lobster tails and biscuits. She was cute to me too. While I have had “experiences” with women back in college and a couple of times after, they weren’t with anyone that I was attracted to or that I loved. I have never been fascinated by or attracted to a woman until…
I saw that movie… I’m Through With White Girls. The lead character blew me away… Everything about her. I think I wanted to BE her…. Plus she was cute to me…
And then after I saw that movie, both women I mentioned kinda looked kinda like her…and they made me feel boyish and unattractive. But that’s how I feel on the inside. Like a boy… Which makes me feel weird when men are attracted to me.
I dont know where I’m going with all of this. I don’t think I could be in love with a woman… But I only love men who hurt me and don’t care afterwards…
I don’t know…I just wanted to express this..whatever it is….