Still Around Somewhere

Hey. What’s up?

I’m still alive. I’ve posted so many new videos that I have to take the time to repost them or you can visit my youtube channel.

I’m still at the shelter. Still trying to connect women with jobs but the back and forth between managers and the women is draining plus I’m trying to work two jobs so I can save money to move and still help women but, all I can say is, I’m trying. I need a team working at this with me but it’s just me and I’m not sure that’s enough.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my last imaginary boyfriend. For some reason he’s been on my mind and I’ve been wishing he’d bring his ass to see me. yeah right.

I’m trying. I want to spend time with my sons. It makes me feel good that they are doing so well with their dad but at the same time, I want to contribute more too.

Tonight I got a little ughh because I started feeling like who I am isn’t good enough to do anything FOR REAL. Like, I wished that I could change so I can be regular but I can’t. I can’t dammit.

To resemble anything like normal success I’d have to be born again into a different person. I don’t know why I’m like this but I’m hoping it has to be beneficial in some way for some reason.

I just have to figure out why.

Anyway.

I’m thirsty and hungry and lonely and I’m feeling all kinds of longing for different things but I’m okay.

I’ll be okay.